revised
i hate jumping out of bed to write something down before its lost in my dreams...but oh well
i was just thinking about how much ive been through in the past months since school started. especially this last semester. ive done a lot of growning up. im not longer that little insecure girls whos afraid to do anything but wont let people know it. no ive matured. and ive learned.
it just feels like life comes at me so fast sometimes but i cant help but let it smack me in the face. hit me in the arm, the chest, the back, the neck, my ear and everyother part of myself of any significance.
and then it just stops, abruptly and all im left with is a lot a bruises a few bumps and a couple scars. the pain goes away but the memories never fade. first i learned to take it in. then i learned to dodge what i already knew and what would cause me pain in the end.
but tonight i realized that ive finally learned to throw back. to take it inn and deal with it in a manner that requires interaction. that requires aggression, confidence and speaking up. ive spent too many years just taking the abuse and nows it time to cause some.
i know that i just compared my life to a game of dodge ball. haha. oh well. this is what ive learned over the course of the past several months. just tonight it smacked me in the face...
i was just thinking about how much ive been through in the past months since school started. especially this last semester. ive done a lot of growning up. im not longer that little insecure girls whos afraid to do anything but wont let people know it. no ive matured. and ive learned.
it just feels like life comes at me so fast sometimes but i cant help but let it smack me in the face. hit me in the arm, the chest, the back, the neck, my ear and everyother part of myself of any significance.
and then it just stops, abruptly and all im left with is a lot a bruises a few bumps and a couple scars. the pain goes away but the memories never fade. first i learned to take it in. then i learned to dodge what i already knew and what would cause me pain in the end.
but tonight i realized that ive finally learned to throw back. to take it inn and deal with it in a manner that requires interaction. that requires aggression, confidence and speaking up. ive spent too many years just taking the abuse and nows it time to cause some.
i know that i just compared my life to a game of dodge ball. haha. oh well. this is what ive learned over the course of the past several months. just tonight it smacked me in the face...