GLOOMS.
Today was probably the first time i cried so much in a long long longggg time.
My day started off well, with bento coming over in the morning to catch up.
Never ever did i expect what she told me when she said last night that she had some sad news to tell me in person.
The prospect of her going overseas to study has probably crossed my mind once or twice last year, but it never stayed for long in my mind. Now that it is going to be reality, i can't help but shedding tear after tear over that matter.
WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME WHEN SHES GONE :(:(:(:(
she's really been such a huge part of my life and i can never imagine getting past the last few years, especially o levels without her. She was my starbucks studying partner when we were preparing for o's, my stronghold and pillar of support when i felt as if my life was going upside down, my source of solace and comfort when i had no one to run to. I love her for who she is, and talking to her online on msn every night since we were about sec 2 has always been an integral part of my life, a routine that would be hard to kick off my daily life when she finally leaves for London.
The past 12 days she spent in Italy was the longest i've ever NOT talked to her and boy was it the 12 most boring days of my life. I've always considered her to be one of the miracles God put in my life- a friend whom i can talk to every single night and still not run out of things to say. Even when we did, it was always a comfortable silence that i could relish in.
I miss random shopping sprees with her, standing outside hair salons for half an hour deciding if we should actually go in to chop our hair (when in effect its but a mere inch we're going to cut), heart to hearts late at night during our often v last minute sleepovers, jew-ing ice cream and countless toppings from yoguru while catching up on each other's hectic lives. I feel sometimes shes the only one that i can talk to and tell all my little nitty gritty stuff that happened to me over the day to. Even if it is just me tripping over stairs or something, she'll always listen to minor stuff like that and still laugh as hard over my stupidity with me.
Also, whenever something major happens in my life and shes not present, SHE IS ALWAYS THE FIRST PERSON THAT COMES TO MY MIND (OTHER THAN RUTH) TO SHARE THAT MOMENT WITH. Something so simple as passing my piano exam and i'd just have to instantly text her that i wished she were with me to celebrate :(
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WHEN OUR TIME ZONES ARE DIFFERENT :( who can i call/msn and pour my sorrows out when i have to at 2 in the morning when shes gone :(
BUT. despite that, i cant tell her not to go too. cause that'll just be so selfish of me. I'm really happy for her that she decided to pursue her education overseas because it'll be really hard to her to continue on in poly with something she's so disinterested in. I really wish her all the best and I pray everything will go well for her :) Even when things dont, i'll always always be there to see to it that things turn out right for her:)
<3 her many many.
My day started off well, with bento coming over in the morning to catch up.
Never ever did i expect what she told me when she said last night that she had some sad news to tell me in person.
The prospect of her going overseas to study has probably crossed my mind once or twice last year, but it never stayed for long in my mind. Now that it is going to be reality, i can't help but shedding tear after tear over that matter.
WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME WHEN SHES GONE :(:(:(:(
she's really been such a huge part of my life and i can never imagine getting past the last few years, especially o levels without her. She was my starbucks studying partner when we were preparing for o's, my stronghold and pillar of support when i felt as if my life was going upside down, my source of solace and comfort when i had no one to run to. I love her for who she is, and talking to her online on msn every night since we were about sec 2 has always been an integral part of my life, a routine that would be hard to kick off my daily life when she finally leaves for London.
The past 12 days she spent in Italy was the longest i've ever NOT talked to her and boy was it the 12 most boring days of my life. I've always considered her to be one of the miracles God put in my life- a friend whom i can talk to every single night and still not run out of things to say. Even when we did, it was always a comfortable silence that i could relish in.
I miss random shopping sprees with her, standing outside hair salons for half an hour deciding if we should actually go in to chop our hair (when in effect its but a mere inch we're going to cut), heart to hearts late at night during our often v last minute sleepovers, jew-ing ice cream and countless toppings from yoguru while catching up on each other's hectic lives. I feel sometimes shes the only one that i can talk to and tell all my little nitty gritty stuff that happened to me over the day to. Even if it is just me tripping over stairs or something, she'll always listen to minor stuff like that and still laugh as hard over my stupidity with me.
Also, whenever something major happens in my life and shes not present, SHE IS ALWAYS THE FIRST PERSON THAT COMES TO MY MIND (OTHER THAN RUTH) TO SHARE THAT MOMENT WITH. Something so simple as passing my piano exam and i'd just have to instantly text her that i wished she were with me to celebrate :(
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WHEN OUR TIME ZONES ARE DIFFERENT :( who can i call/msn and pour my sorrows out when i have to at 2 in the morning when shes gone :(
BUT. despite that, i cant tell her not to go too. cause that'll just be so selfish of me. I'm really happy for her that she decided to pursue her education overseas because it'll be really hard to her to continue on in poly with something she's so disinterested in. I really wish her all the best and I pray everything will go well for her :) Even when things dont, i'll always always be there to see to it that things turn out right for her:)
<3 her many many.