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would anyone be interested in joining a film club at lamar?
because i think i might start one.
this is what should happen to me tomorrow:
the day starts out completely regularly; i feel empty as i drag myself out of bed and force my legs to walk out the door and to the car that will take me to this place that i really dread going to (why would anyone do a thing like that?)
but, as the day progresses, i notice a change. instead of focusing on all of the time being wasted that could be used more productively, i am starting to pay attention to details, and everything seems amazing!
no one else seems to notice, but i don't mind. with every movement, image and color, i am taking in knowledge and just...beauty, at life, and what it is and what everything is when i really don't know at all and that is part of what is so fascinating.
well. i should spend my whole life like this. unforunately it only seems to happen at certain moments, and i live for those moments. the ones where i can just throw my head back and stare at the sky and get lost in it. or like that one night in vitznau; i will never forget it.
it was cool and raining, and i was out on the balcony overlooking the lake (vierwaldstatersee). the sky was crowded with millions of stars whose light reflected off the lake, and the mountains were just dark silhouettes in the distance. it was so beautiful. the only sound was of the rain hitting the water. perhaps this description does not at all justify what i saw then. and it will be nearly impossible to explain how i felt; it was just...utter contentness at being. i sat there for hours, and nothing has ever felt more serene, more...alive. i felt like i was truly alive. and also at that point i decided that houston just didn't quite cut it for me. i have to get away.
well, back to how tomorrow is going to go. i got a little bit off track.
the rest of my day will float by, and i will live every second of it in the way that every human being should live their life. loving it, realizing, learning, being. it's hard to explain i guess.
then, i will meet someone new...who likes taking pictures nearly as much as i do, and we will sip coffee and critique each others' work and have conversations about what it is, what should be, everything and anything really.
and then, everything will be okay.
because i think i might start one.
this is what should happen to me tomorrow:
the day starts out completely regularly; i feel empty as i drag myself out of bed and force my legs to walk out the door and to the car that will take me to this place that i really dread going to (why would anyone do a thing like that?)
but, as the day progresses, i notice a change. instead of focusing on all of the time being wasted that could be used more productively, i am starting to pay attention to details, and everything seems amazing!
no one else seems to notice, but i don't mind. with every movement, image and color, i am taking in knowledge and just...beauty, at life, and what it is and what everything is when i really don't know at all and that is part of what is so fascinating.
well. i should spend my whole life like this. unforunately it only seems to happen at certain moments, and i live for those moments. the ones where i can just throw my head back and stare at the sky and get lost in it. or like that one night in vitznau; i will never forget it.
it was cool and raining, and i was out on the balcony overlooking the lake (vierwaldstatersee). the sky was crowded with millions of stars whose light reflected off the lake, and the mountains were just dark silhouettes in the distance. it was so beautiful. the only sound was of the rain hitting the water. perhaps this description does not at all justify what i saw then. and it will be nearly impossible to explain how i felt; it was just...utter contentness at being. i sat there for hours, and nothing has ever felt more serene, more...alive. i felt like i was truly alive. and also at that point i decided that houston just didn't quite cut it for me. i have to get away.
well, back to how tomorrow is going to go. i got a little bit off track.
the rest of my day will float by, and i will live every second of it in the way that every human being should live their life. loving it, realizing, learning, being. it's hard to explain i guess.
then, i will meet someone new...who likes taking pictures nearly as much as i do, and we will sip coffee and critique each others' work and have conversations about what it is, what should be, everything and anything really.
and then, everything will be okay.