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college night was okay. i ended up going with reese and adam and brittany. i got alot of papers and things from all these different universities that i really don't care to go to at all. i really don't know what will happen or where i will end up or what i want to do. and i guess that's okay, and entirely normal. but i feel like i should be more on top of things.
for one, i promised myself i wouldn't stay here. ugh, i don't know. i just don't want to get stuck. i don't want to have obligations and be tied down in a place that i want nothing more than to leave. so many people live their lives just wishing they were living some other way, or in some other place...i know that these next few years are crucial in determining where i will end up for who knows how long.
school is so monotonous, the only thing that makes it bearable is being able to read books and sometimes i get yelled at for it. that is, i think, completely ridiculous. i am probably learning so much more by reading than i will ever learn in most of my classes. you'd think they would encourage it. instead they would rather have me mindlessly filling in blanks or something along those lines.
tomorrow is art with ms mcintire and i dread that class although i shouldn't. i never thought anyone could make art so horrible.
i have about 5 rolls of film that i need to get developed, too bad i don't have the money.
i'm tired of alot of things. or maybe i'm just tired, or a little bit of both.
for one, i promised myself i wouldn't stay here. ugh, i don't know. i just don't want to get stuck. i don't want to have obligations and be tied down in a place that i want nothing more than to leave. so many people live their lives just wishing they were living some other way, or in some other place...i know that these next few years are crucial in determining where i will end up for who knows how long.
school is so monotonous, the only thing that makes it bearable is being able to read books and sometimes i get yelled at for it. that is, i think, completely ridiculous. i am probably learning so much more by reading than i will ever learn in most of my classes. you'd think they would encourage it. instead they would rather have me mindlessly filling in blanks or something along those lines.
tomorrow is art with ms mcintire and i dread that class although i shouldn't. i never thought anyone could make art so horrible.
i have about 5 rolls of film that i need to get developed, too bad i don't have the money.
i'm tired of alot of things. or maybe i'm just tired, or a little bit of both.