(morning writing, work, garden)
Home! Glasses made it.
I am a little on the blue side, which i assume is weariness, not being present in my body and my heart while at the conference. I was there with my colleague V, whom i'd only just been getting to know. She's ...aggressive? assertive? in her need to know things - an urgency, maybe anxiety. I sense an edge of uncertainty, lack of confidence? I suspect she is very capable. She shared her appreciation of how i spent time with her, mentoring and not "ditching" her.
Sunday i got outside to plant all the bulbs i'd received just before Thanksgiving, forgetting to soak the anenome corms (_Anemone blanda_, Balkan windflower) and other things that went through my head about how i was screwing up the planting. I'm glad i got them in, and part of me believes strongly that getting the bulbs in (and out of the surprisingly dry house) is better for the bulbs than putting things off and having the holiday engagements postpone that work even more.
I rescued some areas from stilt grass, lessons in just how much it shades other plants. On one hand, yay, it's trapping moisture, but it's smothering plants. I've got so much space i need to rescue from the cursed stuff.
I would love to buy and get more native wildflowers out -- the native relatives of Anemone blanda would be lovely to get established. But not until i can trust that they have a place to survive.
post-tags: morning writing, work, garden
I am a little on the blue side, which i assume is weariness, not being present in my body and my heart while at the conference. I was there with my colleague V, whom i'd only just been getting to know. She's ...aggressive? assertive? in her need to know things - an urgency, maybe anxiety. I sense an edge of uncertainty, lack of confidence? I suspect she is very capable. She shared her appreciation of how i spent time with her, mentoring and not "ditching" her.
Sunday i got outside to plant all the bulbs i'd received just before Thanksgiving, forgetting to soak the anenome corms (_Anemone blanda_, Balkan windflower) and other things that went through my head about how i was screwing up the planting. I'm glad i got them in, and part of me believes strongly that getting the bulbs in (and out of the surprisingly dry house) is better for the bulbs than putting things off and having the holiday engagements postpone that work even more.
I rescued some areas from stilt grass, lessons in just how much it shades other plants. On one hand, yay, it's trapping moisture, but it's smothering plants. I've got so much space i need to rescue from the cursed stuff.
I would love to buy and get more native wildflowers out -- the native relatives of Anemone blanda would be lovely to get established. But not until i can trust that they have a place to survive.
post-tags: morning writing, work, garden