(arbinger, depression, woebot, health, weather)
I met with my coach on Tuesday. I don't think i went to a particularly fragile place, but it exhausted me.
Wednesday Christine and i did the grocery run to a shiny brand new grocery: i think i had fantasized too much about a store like the new Safeway in Menlo Park. We are still in the middle of nowhere. There were no surprising delights compared to our usual grocery store. I expected the better selection of "Hispanic" food. My sister had raved about the vegetarian options but it didn't seem significantly different. There was less selection of tofu, but the Field Roast brand sausages were present.
The disappointment, that i wasn't expecting, plus general foot and -- sigh, i have to admit after getting a massage at the office in Ohio i'm having lower back pain -- lower back pain sent me into the dumps on Wednesday. Probably also Hurricane Ian distractions didn't help.
I think i am on the up-swing from those lows. Yesterday my third order of a standing mat has produced something i can use at my desk. I also ordered one of those wooden foot roller/massagers; it arrived. Between using both yesterday, my feet feel better this morning.
We lost power last night due to falling trees. The UPS my CPAP is plugged into woke me up, beeping. Power was restored a few hours later and i was only slightly disturbed as Christine woke to turn off lights. We've a day of tropical storm winds ahead, so there will be more power outages.
I'm chatting with Woebot, an AI cognitive behavioral therapist. It's actually less chatting than "choose your own adventure" style interaction. It's OK so far. I am open to the very very cheerful messages; i don't know how well this would help someone really struggling. There's a tool box included; i'm not sure if those will be as helpful as the pre-order PDFs i receive as a "be patient for the late delivery" of the ADHD Anti-planner .
In an unintentional collision of efforts, i am signed up for "Developing and Implementing an Outward Mindset" from Arbinger Institute, which i read someone post as "a scam to extract large sums of money from corporations to teach employees the golden rule." There is a fair critique that it is really oriented towards the privileged, where less privileged folks really do have external forces that hamper them while more privileged have much more control over their choices. By definition. So telling a CEO that they are responsible and in control of their mindset instead of blaming others for issues is very different than telling a line worker the same thing. I am in the same class as my new exec director and a number of engineering colleagues, so i no longer think that this is a waste of time: the chance to be present in a different context with them will be nice.
Lots of mindset changing there.
Must go call in sick for a few hours because i don't want to interact and i am running late and my sister is urging me to be a little more prepared for power outages.
Wednesday Christine and i did the grocery run to a shiny brand new grocery: i think i had fantasized too much about a store like the new Safeway in Menlo Park. We are still in the middle of nowhere. There were no surprising delights compared to our usual grocery store. I expected the better selection of "Hispanic" food. My sister had raved about the vegetarian options but it didn't seem significantly different. There was less selection of tofu, but the Field Roast brand sausages were present.
The disappointment, that i wasn't expecting, plus general foot and -- sigh, i have to admit after getting a massage at the office in Ohio i'm having lower back pain -- lower back pain sent me into the dumps on Wednesday. Probably also Hurricane Ian distractions didn't help.
I think i am on the up-swing from those lows. Yesterday my third order of a standing mat has produced something i can use at my desk. I also ordered one of those wooden foot roller/massagers; it arrived. Between using both yesterday, my feet feel better this morning.
We lost power last night due to falling trees. The UPS my CPAP is plugged into woke me up, beeping. Power was restored a few hours later and i was only slightly disturbed as Christine woke to turn off lights. We've a day of tropical storm winds ahead, so there will be more power outages.
I'm chatting with Woebot, an AI cognitive behavioral therapist. It's actually less chatting than "choose your own adventure" style interaction. It's OK so far. I am open to the very very cheerful messages; i don't know how well this would help someone really struggling. There's a tool box included; i'm not sure if those will be as helpful as the pre-order PDFs i receive as a "be patient for the late delivery" of the ADHD Anti-planner .
In an unintentional collision of efforts, i am signed up for "Developing and Implementing an Outward Mindset" from Arbinger Institute, which i read someone post as "a scam to extract large sums of money from corporations to teach employees the golden rule." There is a fair critique that it is really oriented towards the privileged, where less privileged folks really do have external forces that hamper them while more privileged have much more control over their choices. By definition. So telling a CEO that they are responsible and in control of their mindset instead of blaming others for issues is very different than telling a line worker the same thing. I am in the same class as my new exec director and a number of engineering colleagues, so i no longer think that this is a waste of time: the chance to be present in a different context with them will be nice.
Lots of mindset changing there.
Must go call in sick for a few hours because i don't want to interact and i am running late and my sister is urging me to be a little more prepared for power outages.