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ahh I hate being sad all the time. I don't know what my problem is. I miss being happy, I miss ryan, I miss my friends and I miss the way things used to be. I hate the weekends because all I do is sit at home. By myself. I almost wish I had classes. I feel like everyone's out there enjoying their life and having fun and Im here. By myself. I seriously hate it. I feel like there's no one to talk to because no one can understand exactly how I feel. Ryan's so busy. We don't get to talk as much. That's good for him, and I should be happy for him and everytime we talk I should be excited and happy but Im not. I always get upset because I feel like he has this whole new life in florida that Im not apart of. I need to be a better girlfriend. He already gave me my valentine's gift, I got red roses and a charm for my link bracelet and the charm is a heart. I love it so much. I just wish I was happy again and felt like a normal 19 year old, because right now I just feel like a mess. I hate it.
Sorry about all this, I just needed to get it out.
Sorry about all this, I just needed to get it out.