stinks

[el_squando]

Life wow that word means so much these days.
With all the stress and anger and depression lately i dont know where to turn.
My friends havent really been there for me well actually two friends have stuck it out with me this whole time, Sean and Brandi.
So idk lately spencer has absolutley no time for me i mean she tells me im her best girl friend but at the same time she never calls me back or never wants to hang out with me its always her and sarah lately, and to tell you the truth im not one bit jealous.
Like Ive got two awesome friends and thats all I need.

But things have been pretty hard on me life is testing the shit out of me.
I mean
-Im in love
-I have a bi-polar mother/sister
-My dad lives all the way in BFE
-Most of my friends could careless about me
-Ive cried everyday for the past week and 2 days/and never for anything good or happy

so whats going on?
Why cant i stop all those things from going on
I wish i could shut down my emotions
And what sucks the worst is i cant change any of that

But i have decided this summer im moving in with dad
for a break kinda/to get away from the normal stress

:/