Aging
I turn 30 tomorrow, so today is the last day of my 20's. I had been planning on throwing a huge party today rather than on my birthday, but the studied indifference I maintain towards my birthdays bit me in the ass, and I forgot what today was until about 6 o' clock last night. And ultimately, I think that's actually perfect- it means that I've been spending the day lazing around at home playing video games and not sleeping enough, which is essentially what I spent the whole of my twenties doing.
I've spent the past six months or so contemplating the fact that I'm not really young anymore, and it hasn't been fun. I absolutely hate the idea of being an adult- I feel like I should be out accomplishing something, and I'm pretty sure that's going to involve lots of hard work. And I hate hard work. But I also don't think I'd be happy if I spent the next ten years of my life as I spent the previous ten. I've got an idea what I want to do with mysel, at least, so I think I'm ahead of the curve theref. Making it happen is going to be the tricky part, though. Sloth has always been my sin, and it's just so much more gratifying in the short term to shirk responsibility and sit around reading and browsing the web and starting yet another Medeival 2: Total War campaign.
So that's where my head is at today. Now that I've got that off my chest, I'm off to play some more Fable II.
I've spent the past six months or so contemplating the fact that I'm not really young anymore, and it hasn't been fun. I absolutely hate the idea of being an adult- I feel like I should be out accomplishing something, and I'm pretty sure that's going to involve lots of hard work. And I hate hard work. But I also don't think I'd be happy if I spent the next ten years of my life as I spent the previous ten. I've got an idea what I want to do with mysel, at least, so I think I'm ahead of the curve theref. Making it happen is going to be the tricky part, though. Sloth has always been my sin, and it's just so much more gratifying in the short term to shirk responsibility and sit around reading and browsing the web and starting yet another Medeival 2: Total War campaign.
So that's where my head is at today. Now that I've got that off my chest, I'm off to play some more Fable II.