damn
i'm feeling really strange at the moment, i feel very detached from jose and it's weird, because in this moment of detachment, while i am still hating his friendship with alyssa, it's taken a backseat to my own selfishness. right now i miss being able to talk to ray, i remember talking to him on the phone that one night for a long time, and i wish i was able to do that, i wish we could talk like that again, about everything and nothing and not have it really matter. and i miss michael ayala. lol. i just think that if i could talk to him..or hear him play music for me like he used to...i'd feel better.
and if i could have it...i wish i had never gone to akins to begin with. i realize i would have missed alot, people,teachers that sort of thing...but it wouldn't have been...if i had never gone to akins, no matter what happened at crockett,i wouldn't have been able to go running back to akins, you know?
and if i could have it...i wish i had never gone to akins to begin with. i realize i would have missed alot, people,teachers that sort of thing...but it wouldn't have been...if i had never gone to akins, no matter what happened at crockett,i wouldn't have been able to go running back to akins, you know?