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[el_lobo_es_loco]

So, at callbacks today one of the actors who has known me for a year or so just asked me out of the blue if I was married. I replied that no, I was absolutely single and had been so for quite some time and always seemed to be the "other girl" who is the one guys choose not to date in favor of someone else they meet

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[spuma_spumata]

The idea that life hasn't started yet, for whatever reason, is a very dangerous one. Everyone always tells me how much harder it is to meet cool people once you leave school and start "real life." So I figure +1 for being at a college, -1 for being in a ridiculously busy grad program. Looks like you about break even.

I feel you on the lonely thing. I find it really helps to be able to get out of the house when there is time and do something really satisfying just for me. If you feel like you've got a hole in your life, would you rather fill it with some boy or something that you experienced and can look back on fondly?

I also wholeheartedly recommend going to see a therapist. A lot of college campuses have a certain number of free visits with a counselor and depending on your health insurance you might be able to meet with a licensed therapist at a cheap price (I pay $7 per visit). I used to always say that I didn't want someone poking around in my head and I can fix myself etc, but that whole line is a bunch of garbage. There is nothing wrong with going to talk to someone who can help you better understand yourself and what you want and how to get it.

[el_lobo_es_loco]

Yeah, I think you're right about me wanting to fill an empty space in my life with a boy rather than something I can experience to some degree. I've been trying to have some weekend adventures and all, but it just doesn't work when you get stuck sitting outside a rehearsal room all weekend and have no time to yourself:/

As for the counselor, I'll take it under serious consideration, as I am fairly certain my health insurance would pay for it. I'm just not sure if that's the step I want to take. It seems like every couple of months or so I just have one bad day, and then I'm fine - I think I've been stressed, sick and suffering from a lack of sleep.

On a better note, I'm feeling much better today:)