strange and rather unusual mood
I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling at the moment. Today was a typical day though aside from one thing. Well seeing as how I'm getting sick again with my mystery illness,I've been growing pale. Well I've taken matters into my own hands,and dumped down some money to start going to a tanning salon. I feel more comfortable with myself when I'm darker complected. When I look in the mirror and see someone pale,I just don't recognize myself. That's not how I look. So I'm doing this so I can look in the mirror and see myself again. Hopefully though,once the illness subsides again,I'll get my color back once more. I was getting it back over the summer. I was pretty dark compared to right now. I was told by a girl whose name will not be mentioned,that I looked like a beaner. It was funny,but gave me confidence in myself again. I'll get there again. One day I'll even find out what is wrong with me and hopefully get it treated.