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Hello all! I'm going to try to keep this as upbeat as possible even though at the moment i'm terrified! I don't know if i can do this whole baby thing... guess i should have thought of that like eight months ago. all my friends and family say i'm going to do fine and i'll be a great mother and blah blah blah... but they kinda have to say that don't they? I'm not really sure i'm going to be able to go through the birthing part either... i just recently found out that the epidural will stay in your spine like a catheter... any of you who know me will know how deathly afraid of needles i am... thats the part i'm dreading the most... when the time comes will i be able to do it. ive had a lot of people tell me that i will be in so much pain i won't even notice it but i don't think so... your talking to a girl that used to get her teeth drilled on without any medicine just so i wouldn't have to get a shot... it hurts trust me. but i don't really have a choice do i? whats done is done. hopefully dale, who has turned into a truly caring guy and my mother will be able to keep me somewhat calm... hopefully i'll be able to keep myself somewhat calm. I went to birthing class today and couldn't stop crying after they showed us how they do the epidural. oh by the way we are inducing labor on tuesday the 13th at 6:00 a.m. I'm ready to get this over with so all the worrying is done. I just want to get to the fun stuff that everybody always talks about. On a lighter note i do have christmas to look foreword to! My dad and sisters are going to be here on christmas eve and they will stay till a day or two before new years! Plus my mother is going to take baby damian for new years so i can go drink! i give it two drinks till i'm on the floor. We are also going to get santa pics on the 23rd. I kinda wish dad could be here for that cause the place i'm going to would let him dress up as santa! that would be cute! well phone is ringing gotta go! wish me luck!!!!