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*updated*
hmmm, what to feel...
what to feel...
Sometimes I think we put on emotions like fads. I think I'll feel this way, or, I like this person because they like me. Maybe it's just me. I tend to be flattered by someone who has an interest in me. I fall into the trap of liking them because they like me. And then there are those who want only what they can't have. I like to call them, "women." ;) Just kidding ladies, but this does describe female more than male. It's just the way we're wired. I don't know. It's just very rare nowadays to find someone who genuinely feels. Like those couples in high school. They thought they would last forever. But the broke up right after school. Because all they knew was each other.
I guess I'm lucky. I know what I feel. Even if sometimes my heart tricks me, it doesn't happen very often. You know, I don't think I've ever prayed for love. Not for myself. At least, not seriously. There was this girl in middle school. OMG, she was hot. Most likely still is. And I used to pray that she'd fall in love with me. I mean, God can do anything. He might as well give me this really hot girl. It didn't happen, by the way. No, she happily ignored me until the day we parted ways. Not that I regret that. It's just nice that God's pretty much in control. Except when we stupidly decide we're doing our own thing. We're so smart sometimes.
Anyway, I just wanted to thank God that He's done everything He has. Answering and not answering prayers.
Love you all
nbb
*updated*
I've decided to try and end all my entries with something I make up.
The mouse, courageous and true
Towering over my house of wood
It scurries about, uninvited
Owning all it sees
Oh to be a mouse
hmmm, what to feel...
what to feel...
Sometimes I think we put on emotions like fads. I think I'll feel this way, or, I like this person because they like me. Maybe it's just me. I tend to be flattered by someone who has an interest in me. I fall into the trap of liking them because they like me. And then there are those who want only what they can't have. I like to call them, "women." ;) Just kidding ladies, but this does describe female more than male. It's just the way we're wired. I don't know. It's just very rare nowadays to find someone who genuinely feels. Like those couples in high school. They thought they would last forever. But the broke up right after school. Because all they knew was each other.
I guess I'm lucky. I know what I feel. Even if sometimes my heart tricks me, it doesn't happen very often. You know, I don't think I've ever prayed for love. Not for myself. At least, not seriously. There was this girl in middle school. OMG, she was hot. Most likely still is. And I used to pray that she'd fall in love with me. I mean, God can do anything. He might as well give me this really hot girl. It didn't happen, by the way. No, she happily ignored me until the day we parted ways. Not that I regret that. It's just nice that God's pretty much in control. Except when we stupidly decide we're doing our own thing. We're so smart sometimes.
Anyway, I just wanted to thank God that He's done everything He has. Answering and not answering prayers.
Love you all
nbb
*updated*
I've decided to try and end all my entries with something I make up.
The mouse, courageous and true
Towering over my house of wood
It scurries about, uninvited
Owning all it sees
Oh to be a mouse