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So yesterday was a very long day at work. I worked 8:45-6:15 and then talked to Sam on my way home. I went out to Longhorn with him and his friend Matt from Bridgewater. The food was sooooo good! Best chicken I've had EVER. I really suggest you guys take a ride to go there. You won't be upset. The bread they serve before is good as well. We were gonna get dessert but we didn't have enough room. After that I got my car at sam's and went home. I talked to my mom about all the details for the trip I'm going on this coming week. We're leavin Thursday night around midnight...that's what everyone else wants to do. I figure that's good because we won't hit as much traffic in New Jersey.
Then I just sat and thought for a while and then went to bed after talkin to Rick for a few minutes. I actually have a question...will loving someone cause them to grow farther apart from you? I dunno...I guess I scare people that I love and I dunno why. And it sucks. It just seems that love isn't going to work out for me. There's someone (and you'd have to be dumb to not know who it is) that I love very much that has made a big difference in my life. I don't know if he knows that he has caused this change for the better in me but I want him to realize it. And I want to be the same for him. I want to have an influence on him. Just a lot of the time I get the hint that I'm a bad influence instead. I don't know guys...maybe I'm just not cut out to be someone's girlfriend...or a good one at that. I dunno..?
without you I'm not okay
and without you I've lost my way
my heart's stuck in 2nd place...
Without you...
I realized I made a big mistake...this is one of those times where you wanna go back in time and change ONE moment that could have made all the difference...
Then I just sat and thought for a while and then went to bed after talkin to Rick for a few minutes. I actually have a question...will loving someone cause them to grow farther apart from you? I dunno...I guess I scare people that I love and I dunno why. And it sucks. It just seems that love isn't going to work out for me. There's someone (and you'd have to be dumb to not know who it is) that I love very much that has made a big difference in my life. I don't know if he knows that he has caused this change for the better in me but I want him to realize it. And I want to be the same for him. I want to have an influence on him. Just a lot of the time I get the hint that I'm a bad influence instead. I don't know guys...maybe I'm just not cut out to be someone's girlfriend...or a good one at that. I dunno..?
without you I'm not okay
and without you I've lost my way
my heart's stuck in 2nd place...
Without you...
I realized I made a big mistake...this is one of those times where you wanna go back in time and change ONE moment that could have made all the difference...