Fanfic: For The Last Time
Title: For The Last Time
Pairing: Junsu X Yoochun, Junsu X Jaejoong
Genre: Angst, Romance
Rating: NC-17, not much
Summary: Junsu thinks it is time to let go
AN: The italics are flashbacks.
Beta-ed by: My bb Mel, obsidianinks
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The line between love and hate is so thin; you can never figure it out. It isn’t easy letting go of 10 years of your life. Sometimes it feels as if you are only taking baby steps away from it, before something triggers you back to the old memories.
Maybe it is time to let go…
“Baby, you are the most beautiful person…ever. I’m so glad you are mine…” The person you are supposed to love forever now stands behind you, his eyes full of love blazing through the mirror. His hands at your waist keep you safe and they warm your heart.
It’s at moments like these when you wish that you can erase him from your life.
***
“I hate you, I hate you.” The man above keeps on thrusting into you, hard as always. But you love him more than anything at this moment, cherishing the only emotion you will ever be going to get out of the other male.
“Harder…More…D-don’t stop Chunnie…” You begged, scared of him walking away.
***
“You know why I love you Su?” The raven-haired beautiful man asks you as he turns you around to face him. His fingers were playing with your short brown hair out of habit.
Seeing his love for you through those beautiful eyes, you nod.
“Just because…” You both breathed the same words, lips meeting for a tender kiss.
***
“Baby, I love you, love you, love you” Your husband-to-be chanted, as he slowly slid the shirt off your shoulders, marking you with little bites all over.
“Joongie~” You cannot hide your emotions anymore. Your hands are still shaking a little, a memento from the past.
His long fingers continue to caress your body, dancing all over your skin. “I wish I can erase our first time together…” He whispered, kissing your forehead in apologies.
“Don’t. Never.” You kiss his nape, smelling the comforting smell that could only be Jaejoong.
***
“This is my bitch…Told you he’s hawt…”
Tied to the bed, you panicked, sensing something was wrong.
“Chun-nie, NO~!” Tears started flowing, wetting your cheeks whilst you kept chanting excuses in your head. ‘This is not Chunnie. Chunnie loves me. This is Park Yoochun.’
The other guy’s lustful glares turn swiftly into pity. “You said he agreed to this.”
“Oh don’t be a saint~! Fuck him anyway you want. How many times does it take to settle my debt?” He is tearing your clothes off now, showing you off like some meat up for sale.
“I’ll pay you 10million and he is mine. FOREVER.” The stranger said, making you shocked that someone is willing to pay for you that much.
You search in Yoochun’s eyes, and what you saw there made you say the next words. “I agree…”
Yoochun looks down at you in shock, but you smiled at him telling. “It’s Ok.”
“But I want you to fuck me first, right here, right now while Chunnie is watching…” You said, pretending to be the biggest slut, tears long gone.
But the other man didn’t seem convinced at all. He kept coming closer to the bed and finally untied your hands, giving you a chance to flee.
Take it as a decade anniversary parting gift Chunnie. A million for each year…
You loop you arms behind the pale stranger’s neck, ready for him to pounce at you but instead when he brings you close and whispers, “I love you. Forgive me”, you thought you had heard it all wrong; a hallucination. But as the other man brings his lips closer, breathing “Su” right before giving you the most tender kiss ever, you cannot stop the tears you thought had already dried.
Without realizing, you melt into him, giving him all the love you had for the other male now standing rooted at the end of the room.
Yoochun left half-way through your session with Jaejoong. You didn’t even notice his absence. Sex with Jaejoong feels closer like the make love sessions with your Chunnie. It’s been so long since you had made love with your lover. You keep on moaning Chunnie’s name until Jaejoong begged desperately for you to call out “Jaejoong”. The man at least deserves that much for being so kind and tender. It’s way better than sex with Park Yoochun.
***
“You think he really loves you? You? It is impossible that The Kim Jae Joong wants anything to do with you?” He keeps taunting you, all whilst he keeps on ramming your abused hole.
You reach out, touching his face as if for the first time; the last time. “Goodbye Yoochun.” Saranghaeyo.
“You are mine. You are mine.” You know from his actions that he won’t stop until you bleed that day.
Let it be another parting gift. “Happy Anniversary, Chunnie.”
***
“Joongie, that night you taught me the difference between sex and love. Did you already loved me back then?” Rolling onto your side of the bed, you entwine your fingers together with his.
He looked into your eyes and confirmed your suspicions. “I have loved you since the first time I saw you at the club, singing on stage. You were too sad and I just wanted to make you happy…”
“So you tricked Yoochun into debt?” There was no trace of anger, but you let go of his hands.
The man who owns the biggest media company in Korea, panicked for the first time. “I-I’m sorry. I know I should have told you..I-I… Please don’t hate me. ”
“I love you…” You said in a low voice.
“But I’ll do it again. I don’t regre-- What did you say?” Your fiancé, the ever so suave Kim Jae Joong, choked on his words.
You get up from the bed, facing away from him. “I said I’m hungry…”
The older guy jumps up from the bed and hugs you from behind. Sobs rack through his body. “Thank you baby. I love you so much baby…”
You nod, hearing his heart beating for you. “Me too Joongie. Me too.”
For the last time, Saranghae Chunnie.
AN:I write this in spur of the moment while listening to Junsu's Kanashimi No Yukue. Dedicated to all my babies, yes..you and you and you..LOL
And yes, I've been bawling after watching JYJ's fancam...so maybe more angst coming..my muse works better when I'm sad