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... whats up haters... or whatever u are..
i have a whole in my exhaust/muffler... lol.. sounds like people are banging two pans together when i get to about 3k RPM... and my airbag light is on.. thats a serious problem...
Anyways... im single! didn't want to post this before.. because i don't like having my feelings up online.. but.. yea.. its a breakup of about 16 months.. my longest relationship.. it is really hard at times.. sometimes i think she isn't even getting phased by the fact that we aren't together anymore.. thats y it hurts me more.. well thats what i get for getting into a relationship with her.. i actually had a "friend" warn me about her.. telling me she was no good, and i would get into probs.. well i ignored that warning... it ran fine for like 8 months, then thats when we started running into fights everyday.. fake breaks every other week.. and our feelings being hurt.. i tryed being the nicest, forgiving guy ever know to mans earth.. she lied, she didn't love me as much as i loved her.. she didn't care for the way i felt at times.. she had bullshit answers for some of my most asked questions... she just didn't want to put forth the effort of loving, becuase she was scared that she would get hurt again, because apparently she always gets hurt by her close friends and family.. but she couldn't simply surprise me with a "I Love You" card.... even tho i would get her flowers for no reason sometimes.. she couldn't love me... when i drive i stare into the sky.. think about her.. i try calling her now, leaving texts... messages.. but no response.. she says she has her reasons.. but... i don't believe them.. she also says im to emotional.. i believe that... how else could i have made her feel loved so much, how else could i have been her "best boyfriend" as she would say sometimes.. how else could i have taken cared of her so much.. put my own parents through so much, just to make her happy.. how else could i have gone about this relationship.. without being hurt...
it hurt me alot... it still is.. and its going to.. she scared me.. im never going to be the same "Mike" while im in a relationship...
she hurt me
i have a whole in my exhaust/muffler... lol.. sounds like people are banging two pans together when i get to about 3k RPM... and my airbag light is on.. thats a serious problem...
Anyways... im single! didn't want to post this before.. because i don't like having my feelings up online.. but.. yea.. its a breakup of about 16 months.. my longest relationship.. it is really hard at times.. sometimes i think she isn't even getting phased by the fact that we aren't together anymore.. thats y it hurts me more.. well thats what i get for getting into a relationship with her.. i actually had a "friend" warn me about her.. telling me she was no good, and i would get into probs.. well i ignored that warning... it ran fine for like 8 months, then thats when we started running into fights everyday.. fake breaks every other week.. and our feelings being hurt.. i tryed being the nicest, forgiving guy ever know to mans earth.. she lied, she didn't love me as much as i loved her.. she didn't care for the way i felt at times.. she had bullshit answers for some of my most asked questions... she just didn't want to put forth the effort of loving, becuase she was scared that she would get hurt again, because apparently she always gets hurt by her close friends and family.. but she couldn't simply surprise me with a "I Love You" card.... even tho i would get her flowers for no reason sometimes.. she couldn't love me... when i drive i stare into the sky.. think about her.. i try calling her now, leaving texts... messages.. but no response.. she says she has her reasons.. but... i don't believe them.. she also says im to emotional.. i believe that... how else could i have made her feel loved so much, how else could i have been her "best boyfriend" as she would say sometimes.. how else could i have taken cared of her so much.. put my own parents through so much, just to make her happy.. how else could i have gone about this relationship.. without being hurt...
it hurt me alot... it still is.. and its going to.. she scared me.. im never going to be the same "Mike" while im in a relationship...
she hurt me