I'm getting married in 20 days (caution: this gets a little sappy)
That's less than three weeks.
I have no idea where the bridesmaids' dresses are. I need to call the bridal shop tomorrow and try not to flip out on them. We also need to order Alex's tux and work out 20 bajillionty other tiny details. But I'm not stressing. If some of the tiny details don't happen, it's ok. I'm getting married in 20 days. I will be married at this time in 20 days.
And I left a large part of my sappy overshare self behind in college. That part of me largely broke when James and I broke up... which was ages and ages ago (over 7 years ago, to be exact).
But now I'm trying to nail down a first dance song, and I'm sitting here crying like the sappy mushy non-cynical person I fought very hard to lose. I haven't let myself get mushy over this, but I should be. It's no small thing that someone loves me enough to promise to put up with my moodiness and messiness and inconsistencies for the rest of our lives. When we first got together, I referred to Jon as my missing puzzle piece, because everything just seemed to fit from the very start. It still fits. Not that it's been perfect or that I expect it ever will be, it just works.
So I'm listening to these Amanda Marshall songs and involuntarily tearing up. But both "If I Didn't Have You" and "Marry Me" are almost 5 minutes long, and that's just longer than I want our first dance to be. I know this is our day, but I'd rather not be THAT much the center of attention. Really. But listen to those songs if you've never heard them. I actually think I'm using a quote from "Marry Me" for the wedding programs - "somehow I know, without asking why, that you love me more in a minute than anyone could in a lifetime".
Now that I've actually sat down to think about the music, I'm very much into it. I want to be introduced to "Everlong" by the Foo Fighters. We're cutting the cake to "The Way I Am" by Ingrid Michaelson (though I could change my mind and go with "When I'm 64" for either of these). And I forgot all about "At Last"... that may have to go on my "must play" list.
I'm very much leaning toward "I Will Hold On" by Moxy Fruvous as our first dance song (as long as I can get Jon to agree to it) because it's not on the top 200 wedding songs list and it's really really sweet. And if he doesn't like that, there's always "Just the Way You Are" which I like, but doesn't hit me the way the others do.
Just in case you don't know the Fru song, I'm putting the lyrics behind the cut. YouTube it, listen to it.
I'll hold you if you feel you'll fall
I'll hold your hand if you just need a friend
I'll hold the line so you can call
I'll hold the feelings you don't want to end
You know that it's true
When I hold you
There'll be no secrets
I believe it
I'll hold your tears if you must cry
I'll hold your breath if that won't make you blue
I'll hold the truth if you must lie
I'll hold off choice till you know what to do
You know that it's true
When I hold you
There are no secrets
I believe it
So I will hold on
And if that's not what you're used to
Then I may refuse to hold off
Well maybe that's not what you're used to
How can I refuse you?
I'll hold the train till you get on
I'll hold the mirror so you can fix your hair
I'll hold the pain till it is gone
And I'll hold my ground when people stop and stare
You know that it's true
When I've held you
There are no secrets
You must believe it
I'll hold the beating of my heart
I'll hold my breath if you will tell me to
I'll hold the hope that we won't part
I'll hold off deaths so I can live with you
You knew it was true
When I held you
There were no secrets
I believed it
So I will hold on
And if that's not what you're used to
Then I may refuse to hold off
Well maybe that's not what you're used to
How can I refuse you?
I have no idea where the bridesmaids' dresses are. I need to call the bridal shop tomorrow and try not to flip out on them. We also need to order Alex's tux and work out 20 bajillionty other tiny details. But I'm not stressing. If some of the tiny details don't happen, it's ok. I'm getting married in 20 days. I will be married at this time in 20 days.
And I left a large part of my sappy overshare self behind in college. That part of me largely broke when James and I broke up... which was ages and ages ago (over 7 years ago, to be exact).
But now I'm trying to nail down a first dance song, and I'm sitting here crying like the sappy mushy non-cynical person I fought very hard to lose. I haven't let myself get mushy over this, but I should be. It's no small thing that someone loves me enough to promise to put up with my moodiness and messiness and inconsistencies for the rest of our lives. When we first got together, I referred to Jon as my missing puzzle piece, because everything just seemed to fit from the very start. It still fits. Not that it's been perfect or that I expect it ever will be, it just works.
So I'm listening to these Amanda Marshall songs and involuntarily tearing up. But both "If I Didn't Have You" and "Marry Me" are almost 5 minutes long, and that's just longer than I want our first dance to be. I know this is our day, but I'd rather not be THAT much the center of attention. Really. But listen to those songs if you've never heard them. I actually think I'm using a quote from "Marry Me" for the wedding programs - "somehow I know, without asking why, that you love me more in a minute than anyone could in a lifetime".
Now that I've actually sat down to think about the music, I'm very much into it. I want to be introduced to "Everlong" by the Foo Fighters. We're cutting the cake to "The Way I Am" by Ingrid Michaelson (though I could change my mind and go with "When I'm 64" for either of these). And I forgot all about "At Last"... that may have to go on my "must play" list.
I'm very much leaning toward "I Will Hold On" by Moxy Fruvous as our first dance song (as long as I can get Jon to agree to it) because it's not on the top 200 wedding songs list and it's really really sweet. And if he doesn't like that, there's always "Just the Way You Are" which I like, but doesn't hit me the way the others do.
Just in case you don't know the Fru song, I'm putting the lyrics behind the cut. YouTube it, listen to it.
I'll hold you if you feel you'll fall
I'll hold your hand if you just need a friend
I'll hold the line so you can call
I'll hold the feelings you don't want to end
You know that it's true
When I hold you
There'll be no secrets
I believe it
I'll hold your tears if you must cry
I'll hold your breath if that won't make you blue
I'll hold the truth if you must lie
I'll hold off choice till you know what to do
You know that it's true
When I hold you
There are no secrets
I believe it
So I will hold on
And if that's not what you're used to
Then I may refuse to hold off
Well maybe that's not what you're used to
How can I refuse you?
I'll hold the train till you get on
I'll hold the mirror so you can fix your hair
I'll hold the pain till it is gone
And I'll hold my ground when people stop and stare
You know that it's true
When I've held you
There are no secrets
You must believe it
I'll hold the beating of my heart
I'll hold my breath if you will tell me to
I'll hold the hope that we won't part
I'll hold off deaths so I can live with you
You knew it was true
When I held you
There were no secrets
I believed it
So I will hold on
And if that's not what you're used to
Then I may refuse to hold off
Well maybe that's not what you're used to
How can I refuse you?