Exceptional Imaginary
||Foreword: This entry is actually a letter to a "friend". We'll, how we view "friendship" complicates matters. Born out of our conversation in ym. so here goes (despite the antok)||
I'm reminded of its beauty, of being an imaginary. It's actually cool. Makes one feel special, or at least makes us feel special.
But sometimes, I yearn for something beyond imaginary. Maybe this time I want to cross the boundaries to reality.
- .. when you said about us being able to talk about topics that you cannot even mention "sa totoong buhay", the first part of the statement was a huge compliment. But the latter part, did kinda upset me. It's like saying my existence is surreal. (hmm, Beatles plays in my head.haha). Ewan ko bakit ako na-"upset".. siguro dahil nabansagan nang "imaginary friends" tayo. Don't get me wrong, I'd be more than crazy not to have you even as an imaginary friend. I like the classification too. Kasi totoo nga, pag kausap kita andaming tumatakbo sa isip ko, mga nakaraang nauungkat, pagkataong nagbabalik. Di ko nagagawa sa totoong buhay, that is with friends.
Imaginary friends, I should be thankful for that already. Siguro na-pop lang ung bubble na we could be more than just imaginary. I would want more than just imaginary. Sigh..wishful thinking. You might say I'm quite an eager beaver (ooh! another social animal! ).
Napaisip na rin ako. I'd rather be an exceptional imaginary friend than a dust of failed friendship blown by the wind of complicated relationship.