From Here to Eternity
Even in death, their love remains. Jaejoong's gone, but Yunho can't let go.
Author's Notes: I remember writing the first chapter in ten minutes, but the second, shorter chapter took twenty. Does not bode well for the third one.
Chapter 1 : Unforgotten
Chapter 2 :
Unforgiven
Unforgiven
I had thought that the world would end after he died, but it didn't. I lived and breathed as deeply, as if he had never lived nor breathed, and I had not known him. As if I had not loved him. Since before. Since the beginning.
I come home every night, this home he created for me, with his smile and laughter, his love and caring, his very breath is imbued into this home. Everything but his body. I can't see him. I can't hear him nor smell him nor taste him. It tries to deceive my senses. But I've grown wiser. I come home tired and sleep. Maybe I won't wake up in the morning. If I'm lucky. Because when I'm asleep, my senses are not deceived. I know he's here. His very being surrounds me.
I wake up in the morning. Jaejoong's a morning person, and always wakes me at the break of dawn. And although it was easy to wake up to a smile like his, I've never made it easy for him. It was wonderful to have him wake me up every morning. Why would I have woken up by myself for? He knew that I hated to wake up in the morning... why did he go away? I don't want to wake up in the morning. There's no longer a reason to wake up every morning. I just want to sleep and dream. Dream of him.
Ara dropped by this morning so I put on a kettle, made some tea. "What kind?" she asks. I don't know what kind, but I know it's not jasmine, so I don't answer, smiled and merely placed the teacup in front of her. It smells sweetly floral. It reminds me of Jaejoong, even though it shouldn't. Everything reminds me of him.
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Flashback
"I am never going to forgive you. Never!"
Jaejoong watched his beloved Yunho, as he fought the orderly and his friends with all his strength.
You will, Yunho, you will forgive me. Love leaves no room for hate.
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Did you know that hate could not exist, without love? I never knew that my love would make me hate you.
I will love you forever, Jaejoong. And I will never forgive you for leaving me.
Come back, Jaejoong, come back. As if you never left me.
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