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AS i open this to update my journal a pop up arises AMERICAN INSURANCE AND FINANCE moan maybe i'll deposit something for my future how yank of me. Well this is a weary and tired entry merely because ive only had 3 hours sleep. I went out after work and ended up being out all night again getting home at 6:30am. A feeling of self satisfaction though as while we were at the loft i told them DJ he gotta ditch what he's playin and get some percussive house going a vision ive had for that place for quite a while. Sure enough it was a complete success as i thought it would be to the thanking of the DJ. Then another end to a night at word bar where i shook my booty to some more percussive samba beats.
It's getting hot today.
Earlier this week i had my hearing for uni before the faculty. That was more nerve wracking than i had intially anticipated. They barrelled me with questions and none of my reasons were effective. Yet when they found out this was my first hearing to their stunned amazement as to why i had never been called up before they luckily let me stay on condition that i do 2 subjects and complete them succesfully. 12 subjects in 2 years. It's possible. Before i walked in there i kind of felt how ever things turn out i won't be fussed. But it really shook me up and i've been thinking about it ever since. I feel like now that i have a chance to prove something to myself that has been lost a long time ago. The chance to show myself as well as others i still got it in me. It's a feeling a miss. Really its the reason why for so many years ive been depressed and miserable. I'm a bit stubborn when it comes to learning lessons in life yet it doesnt help when the only teacher i rely on for that is myself and not others. Imagine how happy i will be with a sense of achievement and the effort i can only be proud. So in a way i am glad i have a second chance to show myself i can do this after so many years in limbo. I think my heads been kicked into place again.
Today i went out and saw Lost in Translation. I really liked this film. It's sombre dry but romantic and the setting in Japan really adds an element to the film and a nostalgia. Infact i loved this film i dont think many people would but theres something really sweet about it and endearing. A thought just occured to me writing this entry. M.D howser from that tv show years ago where they had that teenage doctor always used to write entries about what happened in that episode at the end. This feels like that hehe.
And so it's christmas and what have you done? Well with the christmas and new year approaching i think i can safely look back on this year and see it as a real maturing and growing up phase with tonnes of experience to my life. I guess a lot has happened to my life in the past year. For some reason i feel reborn these past few days and i hope this feeling stays. Suddenly things seem alright things seem clear. However i still feel something is distant but i think that something is just love.
Everyone wants this and i suppose as unique as i am i can safely say im normal in joining such a common need. Don't get me wrong im no love sick puppy, but just wondering whose out there that connects and fits the right way. It's weird you know looking at the past year and at the years going by, i dont get upset about things as i used to. I suppose once you become more familiar with yourself and what you want then things in life phase you less or impressions of you or just the small things i used to fuss over. Well guess you can see my minds been very thoughtful lately and reflecting.
I'm tired and i think i'll make myself a coffee.
peace.
It's getting hot today.
Earlier this week i had my hearing for uni before the faculty. That was more nerve wracking than i had intially anticipated. They barrelled me with questions and none of my reasons were effective. Yet when they found out this was my first hearing to their stunned amazement as to why i had never been called up before they luckily let me stay on condition that i do 2 subjects and complete them succesfully. 12 subjects in 2 years. It's possible. Before i walked in there i kind of felt how ever things turn out i won't be fussed. But it really shook me up and i've been thinking about it ever since. I feel like now that i have a chance to prove something to myself that has been lost a long time ago. The chance to show myself as well as others i still got it in me. It's a feeling a miss. Really its the reason why for so many years ive been depressed and miserable. I'm a bit stubborn when it comes to learning lessons in life yet it doesnt help when the only teacher i rely on for that is myself and not others. Imagine how happy i will be with a sense of achievement and the effort i can only be proud. So in a way i am glad i have a second chance to show myself i can do this after so many years in limbo. I think my heads been kicked into place again.
Today i went out and saw Lost in Translation. I really liked this film. It's sombre dry but romantic and the setting in Japan really adds an element to the film and a nostalgia. Infact i loved this film i dont think many people would but theres something really sweet about it and endearing. A thought just occured to me writing this entry. M.D howser from that tv show years ago where they had that teenage doctor always used to write entries about what happened in that episode at the end. This feels like that hehe.
And so it's christmas and what have you done? Well with the christmas and new year approaching i think i can safely look back on this year and see it as a real maturing and growing up phase with tonnes of experience to my life. I guess a lot has happened to my life in the past year. For some reason i feel reborn these past few days and i hope this feeling stays. Suddenly things seem alright things seem clear. However i still feel something is distant but i think that something is just love.
Everyone wants this and i suppose as unique as i am i can safely say im normal in joining such a common need. Don't get me wrong im no love sick puppy, but just wondering whose out there that connects and fits the right way. It's weird you know looking at the past year and at the years going by, i dont get upset about things as i used to. I suppose once you become more familiar with yourself and what you want then things in life phase you less or impressions of you or just the small things i used to fuss over. Well guess you can see my minds been very thoughtful lately and reflecting.
I'm tired and i think i'll make myself a coffee.
peace.