Mush time
I miss you guys...I'm out makin' new friends and it just makes me value ya'll even more...I miss being able to hang out with people who know me well and still like me even though they can't touch my feet...Justin is great, but sometimes it's not enough. Good girlfriends are hard to find. I've got plenty of friends, I just don't have a second family out here. That's what I miss: friends that are like a family.
I've been trying to figure out why I'm suddenly not motivated to do ANYTHING except hang out this month, and I think I'm not ready for Christmas to come around. I haven't wanted to get a job, even though I need the money, I haven't wanted to even draw for a couple of weeks. I've just wanted to spend time with friends. I'm scared any choice I make is going to be the wrong one. But most of all I'm scared to face the reality about death.
It's like I'm trying to prepare myself to lose someone else this Christmas, and I'm trying to live all this life before I leave for Baltimore in case anything else bad happens. I'm trying extra hard to have this busy fun life so I don't have to think. About anything more than the next moment. Does that even make sense?
I've been trying to figure out why I'm suddenly not motivated to do ANYTHING except hang out this month, and I think I'm not ready for Christmas to come around. I haven't wanted to get a job, even though I need the money, I haven't wanted to even draw for a couple of weeks. I've just wanted to spend time with friends. I'm scared any choice I make is going to be the wrong one. But most of all I'm scared to face the reality about death.
It's like I'm trying to prepare myself to lose someone else this Christmas, and I'm trying to live all this life before I leave for Baltimore in case anything else bad happens. I'm trying extra hard to have this busy fun life so I don't have to think. About anything more than the next moment. Does that even make sense?