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Aug 24, 2005 20:02

So I'm sitting here on my couch completely drugged up just contemplating life. I still don't know what the answer is, but it makes the think that the effexor is working because I hardly care anymore. I know I'm going to keep going, and that I will never find the answer. With Kevvvin gone I will have to contemplate on my own which is never as much fun. I need a partner in crime even if it's just a mind game meant for no one but myself.

I was thinking about the beginning of TAMS last year. I was so excited about Bret. His family and mine have really weird deep connections. Mis Padres thought it was destiny. Bret loosened me up a bit. I remember how my hair used to be and how I used to blow dry it. I remember my first kiss with Lacey in my room pressed up agianst the closet. I remember all of our walks and talks. Where the time goes no one knows. I remember drawing penises with Bret on everything Kevvvin owned. I remember hating him for nearly getting the both kicked out. I keep a record of my old AIM profiles and there was one with IF YOU LOVE BRET ON ALEJANDRO RYCROFT THEN POST THIS IN YOUR PROFILE... FUCK ADMIN."

I'll miss the late night discussions with Oliver, Kevvvin, and Bret. I won't have the Carlos and Matts to have fun with. GOlfing was such good times even though I never went. Rio Rider, Jay and Silent Bob raps, the list goes on. I imagine that this next semester will be very similar to march or April but iwthout Kevvvin, or much the same as my time at TAMS between Thanksgiving and Christmas.

Star Park, Golfing, PEB, McKenna, Eureka, North Lakes, and Kerr Park. All these places that will mean something so much different to me this year than last. And the Codone is kicking in....
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