Letter to my Grandma in Heaven
Dear Nanay,
It might be too late to say this thing, but i hope you'll receive it in heaven. i know there's no post office or facebook or twitter in heaven nor any internet connection but i hope that you'll read this message. Its my message for you, how i miss you and how sorry i am for not being there with you, for not taking care of you.
I was shock when i found out your not anymore alive. It was too sudden that i never had the chance to say GOODBYE. I never even look at your face inside the coffin because i want you to remain alive (still breathing and still strong) in my memory though i know i'm just lying to myself.
Nanay, i'm still missing u despite its been months now. I thought you'll be there in my GRADUATION DAY. My GRADUATION would be just a couple of months, I guess three months, yet you didn't wait. You haven't seen me wear a TOGA Nay. You haven't seen me walked in the stage shaking hands with the University President. And now you will never going to congratulate me if i already had the right to attach the "ENGINEER's" name before my first name.
I'd promised you that I'll study hard, that I'll graduate from the University. I already fulfill it Nay. Are you happy now? You might and you will if your just here. Dad said, we don't have any reason to visit your place, its because your not anymore there, waiting for us, welcoming us with a big beautiful smile.
I really want to cry during the funeral but i hold myself. I saw my mom cry and my aunts. Yet, I'd tried my best not to let my tears escape from my eyes.
Are you happy in heaven Nay? Are the ANGELS taking care of you? Do have a nice place in there? But i guess you already miss the Ocean just outside your house - the sound of the waves at night. Did you miss the pigs or the chickens? They miss you. We miss you. I MISS YOU!
I hope you'll visit me one day. If you want me to hold your hands in my dream, I WILL. If you want me to follow you, walk with you in my dream, I WILL. But please don't tell me to forget you.
Nay, in two months now, it would be your Anniversary and it would be my JUDGMENT time. I wanted to go in your place, visit the cemetery, and bring bouquet of flowers. Yet, i still need to finish everything in here. Nay, please guide me on my EXAM day. It would the day of your Anniversary. I still don't know if i pass it or not. But i still wish and hope that I'll pass it. The ENGINEER's name would be for you Nay - MY ONLY GIFT FOR YOU. I'll try my best to fulfill it. I wrapped it and send it to heaven. But i still don't your exact address Nay.
MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA NANAY!!!!!!
From,
Your Granddaughter - EIRENE
It might be too late to say this thing, but i hope you'll receive it in heaven. i know there's no post office or facebook or twitter in heaven nor any internet connection but i hope that you'll read this message. Its my message for you, how i miss you and how sorry i am for not being there with you, for not taking care of you.
I was shock when i found out your not anymore alive. It was too sudden that i never had the chance to say GOODBYE. I never even look at your face inside the coffin because i want you to remain alive (still breathing and still strong) in my memory though i know i'm just lying to myself.
Nanay, i'm still missing u despite its been months now. I thought you'll be there in my GRADUATION DAY. My GRADUATION would be just a couple of months, I guess three months, yet you didn't wait. You haven't seen me wear a TOGA Nay. You haven't seen me walked in the stage shaking hands with the University President. And now you will never going to congratulate me if i already had the right to attach the "ENGINEER's" name before my first name.
I'd promised you that I'll study hard, that I'll graduate from the University. I already fulfill it Nay. Are you happy now? You might and you will if your just here. Dad said, we don't have any reason to visit your place, its because your not anymore there, waiting for us, welcoming us with a big beautiful smile.
I really want to cry during the funeral but i hold myself. I saw my mom cry and my aunts. Yet, I'd tried my best not to let my tears escape from my eyes.
Are you happy in heaven Nay? Are the ANGELS taking care of you? Do have a nice place in there? But i guess you already miss the Ocean just outside your house - the sound of the waves at night. Did you miss the pigs or the chickens? They miss you. We miss you. I MISS YOU!
I hope you'll visit me one day. If you want me to hold your hands in my dream, I WILL. If you want me to follow you, walk with you in my dream, I WILL. But please don't tell me to forget you.
Nay, in two months now, it would be your Anniversary and it would be my JUDGMENT time. I wanted to go in your place, visit the cemetery, and bring bouquet of flowers. Yet, i still need to finish everything in here. Nay, please guide me on my EXAM day. It would the day of your Anniversary. I still don't know if i pass it or not. But i still wish and hope that I'll pass it. The ENGINEER's name would be for you Nay - MY ONLY GIFT FOR YOU. I'll try my best to fulfill it. I wrapped it and send it to heaven. But i still don't your exact address Nay.
MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA NANAY!!!!!!
From,
Your Granddaughter - EIRENE