efiL..
Yea, so back to the grind...nothing has really changed.
I'm busier than I've ever been, which is nice in a way.
Doesn't really give me time to think...kinda keeps me numb to the world around me.
Which is a wonderful escape.
Prolly not the healthiest approach to dealing with things I admit,
but it maintains my....homeostasis of existence?
It's not really like I'm letting it all bottle up, I just let it go.
I don't care anymore.
Getting ahold my my "parents" is like attempting to contact the Pope and the President.
I leave a message and get a call back four days later.
This would have bothered me greatly...even a couple months ago.
But now...not so much...Too busy for me? So be it.
I also notice myself becoming something I've always hated.
Not so much something, but I'm doing things that I once despised people for doing.
No, not drugs...Just decisions...
Like...I see this happening... recognize it...
And yet I almost don't WANT to change...odd.
At least most of my friends have remained constant, they never change.
A few I question as to whether they really care.
That's nothing new really, Oh well.
I'm so thankful for having my friends regardless, for having people to turn to.
And I appreciate them putting up with me, I know I can be a handful.
Much love <3
Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along
So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
When everything is wrong we move along
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along
When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Right back what is wrong
We move along
Think about it.