For i realized, i truly miss you.

[eirazm]

Yo! Genki desu ka?

Since yesterday, i have been watching my favourite boys. Watching FnS PV and making, last week's Dame Yoru & Music Lovers. It makes me realized how i truly miss the boys. I miss watching their dorky self, i miss screaming for them whenever they look so handsome and cool. I miss laughing at their crazy, stupid antics. Oh i just truly miss them!

For 1 year since September last year, my fangirling activities has been decreased to some level. I would blame it on my final year semesters. Who would have thought that final year work loads could take my free time away? I never thought of that anyway. Since before final year, work loads was a lot & i'm more active in organizations... but i still had lots of time to fangirling. But in final year, i have stopped any organizations activities and the work loads is not exactly that much but my free time is just missing. =.=" Considering the fact that it's hard to download any KAT-TUN related stuffs in university... yeah no wonder fangirling is just hard.

Even so, whenever KAT-TUN is mentioned, i would always get excited. But it's hard to materialized those excitedness into screaming or writing or twitter-ing on them. Also, I have not been in contact with my fandom friends to fangirl too. Ahhh, it feels lonely somehow. Now that i have completed my degree and currently waiting for graduation ceremony in October, i'm FREEEEEEE~!!!! I'm gonna spend this "free time" before job hunting to be a true fangirl. :))

If i am to be honest, i would say... my life as a fangirl is truly the other side of me. Where only close friends could see how i am totally smitten with KAT-TUN. Others might not realize this. As i kind of think i hide it truly well. It's like my fandom life is my darkest secret of some sort. lol. I know most of my RL friends does not understand why i love them, why i have started to buy their CDs when it is really expensive.... it's hard to explain to them. Or let just say i'm too lazy to explain to them. I was watching a fanvideo just now... & i realized this fanvid could explain why i love KAT-TUN so much.

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My eyes got teary watching this. The love i feel for them is overwhelming. I love you. They might not know me, but they could make me happy. Thank you boys. I will support you till forever.

& Nakamaru Yuichi, Happy Belated Birthday. May you have wonderful years ahead. :)

Enough rambling, take care!

lots of love,
eirazm