We are nearing the end...
of 2008 at least... and I can't help but ponder and think and think. I wish I didn't think as much as I do, and worry as much. It is ingrained in me for some reason.
Someone asked me if I could go back in time, would I do things differently. To tell the truth, yes I would. I can't help but feel full of regrets for past mistakes that are still troubling me today. I wish to see my father again. I miss him soo much. I hate to feel like I deserve all the shit I am feeling because I was so stupid before. I didn't learn from my mistakes the first or even the second time.
I would like to be where I am today ( I am not complaining about my current situation, just past regrets), and I know many people say "Well to get to where you are today you had to go through what you did", but I wish I could without having been through what I did. I am happy now relationship wise, my boyfriend is the best on earth, no one has ever made me feel as loved as he has, but other than that I want to be at peace. With myself, my family, my past.
I just want to be happy this year. I want to let go of soo many things.
How does someone forgive themselves?
Someone asked me if I could go back in time, would I do things differently. To tell the truth, yes I would. I can't help but feel full of regrets for past mistakes that are still troubling me today. I wish to see my father again. I miss him soo much. I hate to feel like I deserve all the shit I am feeling because I was so stupid before. I didn't learn from my mistakes the first or even the second time.
I would like to be where I am today ( I am not complaining about my current situation, just past regrets), and I know many people say "Well to get to where you are today you had to go through what you did", but I wish I could without having been through what I did. I am happy now relationship wise, my boyfriend is the best on earth, no one has ever made me feel as loved as he has, but other than that I want to be at peace. With myself, my family, my past.
I just want to be happy this year. I want to let go of soo many things.
How does someone forgive themselves?