Deep Rooted Humor
"Sometimes i wanna walk the street"
It's strange that everytime i feel like i should write something to get it off of ym chest someone wants to talk about it. It's not that i dont like writing its a weird alternative though. At least it is for me, and honestly I would rather write but it's just such bullshit to repeat myself sometimes. Anyways more then just that though, i just haven't had the time. School work and mostly sleep is a major concern in my life. I'm making excuses to myself why i haven't updated, jesus what am I doing? I guess talking and responding to myself isnt healthy. But really what in my life is healthy, not much, but for reason im happy with that. I don't feel like i should be healthy. Eh healthy is a state of mind. It's also highly over-rated. One way or another I'm not healthy though. Iv'e been getting angryer and angryer at people latley, for even the smaller things. But i can't put up with this bullshit anymore. I'm feeling overly frustrated most of the time and irratable all of the time. Maybe the lack of sleep catches up after a while. But it dosen't feel like that kaind of bother. It feels like im just slowly starting to become a bitter and angry person. People just make me fucking sick. People don't give a fuck about anyone. I can understand if it's once in a while because you do have to think about yourself first sometimes but all the time? Never even stopping to think about anyone, thats bullshit. We are on this world togther, if we dont offer any time of comrodderie then nothing will ever get done. You can hate person A for whatever reason so you don't stock something beucase they work the next day. Then Person B sees that nothing is stocked so they dont stock for the next shift and so on and so on. It shouldnt be about if you liek the person or not, helping out people is part of our duty as humans. We have got to stick with eachother. And when you decide that you dont feel like helping someone out because it costs you 2 minutes that shows on that person you didnt help. They think beucase you saw they needed something and left them there to die that they can do teh same thing. Blatant disregard for humanity is not what we should have. We need to have some sort of friendly association with them. And this isn't about race, religion or any of that bullshit this is just about humans as a general group. Why does this shit happen? Why can't people take a few minuted out of the day to help someone out? Why wont they? Why do we betray our own concince? Have we "evolved" that much? Have we moved away from any sort of humanity? I guess humanity is the reason why I can't believe in a god. If a god even exsisted why would it let our society degrade into this? I mean maybe it dosent have controal but i dont care, It should try and help which i can see none of. It depends on how you would see god, and i see it as something that would help out when/if we needed it. The lack of any sort of help, or even acknowledgement form this higher power just leads me to believe that nothing outside of ourselves can be god. And now becuase of that we can become our own gods, thinking that we can do whatever we want beucase we are gods in our own respect . We feel as though we should be treated as one. If god exsisted as a role model then it does a pretty damn good job beucase everyone acts just liek it does if it even exsists. I hate people, i hate that people cant even give me the time of day becuase they dont like me. This world is bullshit, its full of phoney bullshit and im fucking sick of it. Im sick of watching this and accepting it. Im done with it all. You don't want to be nice to you fellow human? well guess what, I'm gunna yell at you for it. It's nothing violent, its nothing big, and it sure wont even get anythign done. BUt making me feel better and possibly turning that one person to help someone even if it's just one time. I yelled at the staff at marcus on saterday night because they didnt want to stock because no one ever does for them. If they never do ti for anyone else they have no right to complain. Concession and Marcus in general reminds me every day about why i hate hummanity. It's sad but one hundred percent true. And i dont want to sound like im making my self out to be a saint cause i sometimes dont think about other people but i try my hardest and thats unfortunatly more then i can say for others.
On a worse note:
My cars dead, gone, and rusting. It's transmission failed and it costs more then the car is worth. So it's dead. Gone, this time it's not comming back. It's sad, beucase its really the only person/thing ive ever loved. It yelled at it but it really was my favorite thing/person in the world. It rocked. It might sound bad that i favora car over a person but continuing with my chain of "angry at hummanity mindset" it really is true. It's what i wanted and needed, nothing more or less. It neer let me down or made me lose faith. I got angry at it, yeah but it really is sad thats its gone. I guess i was prepared for this one beucase of last time i was so ready for it die on me. ive been ready, im ready to let it go i guess....
well, i guess im still an angry,cynical, bitch-ass, honkey when it comes down to it.
It's strange that everytime i feel like i should write something to get it off of ym chest someone wants to talk about it. It's not that i dont like writing its a weird alternative though. At least it is for me, and honestly I would rather write but it's just such bullshit to repeat myself sometimes. Anyways more then just that though, i just haven't had the time. School work and mostly sleep is a major concern in my life. I'm making excuses to myself why i haven't updated, jesus what am I doing? I guess talking and responding to myself isnt healthy. But really what in my life is healthy, not much, but for reason im happy with that. I don't feel like i should be healthy. Eh healthy is a state of mind. It's also highly over-rated. One way or another I'm not healthy though. Iv'e been getting angryer and angryer at people latley, for even the smaller things. But i can't put up with this bullshit anymore. I'm feeling overly frustrated most of the time and irratable all of the time. Maybe the lack of sleep catches up after a while. But it dosen't feel like that kaind of bother. It feels like im just slowly starting to become a bitter and angry person. People just make me fucking sick. People don't give a fuck about anyone. I can understand if it's once in a while because you do have to think about yourself first sometimes but all the time? Never even stopping to think about anyone, thats bullshit. We are on this world togther, if we dont offer any time of comrodderie then nothing will ever get done. You can hate person A for whatever reason so you don't stock something beucase they work the next day. Then Person B sees that nothing is stocked so they dont stock for the next shift and so on and so on. It shouldnt be about if you liek the person or not, helping out people is part of our duty as humans. We have got to stick with eachother. And when you decide that you dont feel like helping someone out because it costs you 2 minutes that shows on that person you didnt help. They think beucase you saw they needed something and left them there to die that they can do teh same thing. Blatant disregard for humanity is not what we should have. We need to have some sort of friendly association with them. And this isn't about race, religion or any of that bullshit this is just about humans as a general group. Why does this shit happen? Why can't people take a few minuted out of the day to help someone out? Why wont they? Why do we betray our own concince? Have we "evolved" that much? Have we moved away from any sort of humanity? I guess humanity is the reason why I can't believe in a god. If a god even exsisted why would it let our society degrade into this? I mean maybe it dosent have controal but i dont care, It should try and help which i can see none of. It depends on how you would see god, and i see it as something that would help out when/if we needed it. The lack of any sort of help, or even acknowledgement form this higher power just leads me to believe that nothing outside of ourselves can be god. And now becuase of that we can become our own gods, thinking that we can do whatever we want beucase we are gods in our own respect . We feel as though we should be treated as one. If god exsisted as a role model then it does a pretty damn good job beucase everyone acts just liek it does if it even exsists. I hate people, i hate that people cant even give me the time of day becuase they dont like me. This world is bullshit, its full of phoney bullshit and im fucking sick of it. Im sick of watching this and accepting it. Im done with it all. You don't want to be nice to you fellow human? well guess what, I'm gunna yell at you for it. It's nothing violent, its nothing big, and it sure wont even get anythign done. BUt making me feel better and possibly turning that one person to help someone even if it's just one time. I yelled at the staff at marcus on saterday night because they didnt want to stock because no one ever does for them. If they never do ti for anyone else they have no right to complain. Concession and Marcus in general reminds me every day about why i hate hummanity. It's sad but one hundred percent true. And i dont want to sound like im making my self out to be a saint cause i sometimes dont think about other people but i try my hardest and thats unfortunatly more then i can say for others.
On a worse note:
My cars dead, gone, and rusting. It's transmission failed and it costs more then the car is worth. So it's dead. Gone, this time it's not comming back. It's sad, beucase its really the only person/thing ive ever loved. It yelled at it but it really was my favorite thing/person in the world. It rocked. It might sound bad that i favora car over a person but continuing with my chain of "angry at hummanity mindset" it really is true. It's what i wanted and needed, nothing more or less. It neer let me down or made me lose faith. I got angry at it, yeah but it really is sad thats its gone. I guess i was prepared for this one beucase of last time i was so ready for it die on me. ive been ready, im ready to let it go i guess....
well, i guess im still an angry,cynical, bitch-ass, honkey when it comes down to it.