Life is ...strange. I have an income.school an dlove and yet I am overwhelmed....it took talking with kati and with Marc...to figure out why. I am trying to take on too much responsibility again....nothing new there. But at least I am getting better at recognizing it ( Read more... )

Well things were rough for a while...and I finaly figured out why. Fear. There were alot of things that were making me afraid...and to those who know me...what is my internal reaction to fear. Three guesses and the first two are wrong...thats right I become angrier. IT started when I ame back from KC. I had an immediate problem with my bank costing ( Read more... )

Well yesterday due to fiscal and time reasons I put therapy on hold for 30 days. I was excited about it...the chance to see how well I had actually been doing. Today of course gave many problems with that plan ( Read more... )

It has been a while since I have written...My time has been rare as of late. I find myself with new dilemmas...I have finaly recived my EMT cert from the state. Which is cool..bu tnow I have to find a job as an EMT..or two. Because I have grown weary of the Red Cross. Many minor things since Roy was bounced as site supervisor...but all petty and ( Read more... )

Nothing new there I know. I am going today to take my national registry test for EMT basic. I am seriously hoping that all goes well. I also have a ton of homework to do..both personal and school related. I find I miss my friends..more so because I havent spoken to some of them in a while because I have had no time..and I feel bad because of that. ( Read more... )

A sacred cow was thrown out the window last night....The erroneous belief that a comic book could not speak of serious subjects,that a comic book movie could not have serious themes. All those pretentious fools and phony intelligentsia looking as the accumulated filth and detritus of there vapid entertainments foam about there waists say  " help us ( Read more... )

I have realized that I compartmealize my life. I do it to keep myself from being hurt. I do it to keep my loved ones safe form harm. I do it to keep some sort of control to my life in basicaly uncaring universe. I am running my head into a wall trying to find aplace to set my feet..eevn though really there is no place...the best you can do is if ( Read more... )

Is where I am. My vacation was fun and troubling. It raised some questions and answered some others ( Read more... )

And one to go. I have completed most of my finals. I have done well on them so far. I am happy so far with how I have been doing ( Read more... )

Since last I posted many things have happened.

First..as per my resolution this year I have started classes. This has had good and bad. The good EMT class is not boring..a potential fear I had. I know most but there have been new changes to the field thta I didn't know...and even the old stuff draws me in as if it is 1997. But the health and well ( Read more... )