thatch hut vacation: k(2) and h
you'd think, with the way i vomitted up a 4 foot length of my small intestines this weekend, that i'd have at least lost weight.
nope. because right now the universe sucks.
i've got my little thatch hut and my little candle. and i'm not inviting anyone to come visit cuz its at an undisclosed location. if you see my smoke signals, just know i'm alive and i love you.
but i cannot be responsible for anyone else's shit. this is not new. nor should it be news. but apparently i have a couple of close friends that are surprised to discover that i am not going to pick up after them or coddle them or cowtow to their demands. good goddess, who did you people think i am? haven't we met?
i know right from wrong. and i know i love you. i know i would not make the same decisions you do, but i know i will not fault you your decisions. don't lash out at me for not making the same decisions. don't lash out at me for not saying i would do the same. don't treat me poorly when you're mad at someone else or at yourself.
i am not your mirror.
beat up on someone else. i won't stand to be your punching bag when you're girlfriend manipulates you with another woman's affections. i won't stand to be told what a horrible friend i am for not making your life better when you refuse to leave the place and home that makes you miserable. when you put space between us, you cannot rage against me for being far away. when you decide against spending time with me, you cannot justify your anger with the separation between us.
i am still here. for you and for everyone else in my life. just not right now. cuz right now i'm in a thatch hut. sending up smoke signals.
working on my future.
i am so mad at the world. but mostly you three. fuck you.
nope. because right now the universe sucks.
i've got my little thatch hut and my little candle. and i'm not inviting anyone to come visit cuz its at an undisclosed location. if you see my smoke signals, just know i'm alive and i love you.
but i cannot be responsible for anyone else's shit. this is not new. nor should it be news. but apparently i have a couple of close friends that are surprised to discover that i am not going to pick up after them or coddle them or cowtow to their demands. good goddess, who did you people think i am? haven't we met?
i know right from wrong. and i know i love you. i know i would not make the same decisions you do, but i know i will not fault you your decisions. don't lash out at me for not making the same decisions. don't lash out at me for not saying i would do the same. don't treat me poorly when you're mad at someone else or at yourself.
i am not your mirror.
beat up on someone else. i won't stand to be your punching bag when you're girlfriend manipulates you with another woman's affections. i won't stand to be told what a horrible friend i am for not making your life better when you refuse to leave the place and home that makes you miserable. when you put space between us, you cannot rage against me for being far away. when you decide against spending time with me, you cannot justify your anger with the separation between us.
i am still here. for you and for everyone else in my life. just not right now. cuz right now i'm in a thatch hut. sending up smoke signals.
working on my future.
i am so mad at the world. but mostly you three. fuck you.