Lacrosse + Today
I love lacrosse. I really do. The actual sport, i love, and I LOVE playing defense. I hate how much shit we get though, and we never get praise. Even Paige noticed it, now that she sometimes plays defense. I love playing point. It is definitelymy favorite position. But i played 3rd man today...for a little bit of the second half, i switched with Tracy, but i started to get really mad, and tried to hit this girl. I had a HORRIBLE migraine, that I had definitelyhad since 8:00 this morning, (hence the reason i was late to the field in the 1st place.) And you know how when you have a migraine, everything is shit, and you don't give a fuck about anything, and you get really pissed off over something really little, like somebody giving you advise on the field when you are loosing, and you suck. Yea...well thats deff how I was. And they were yelling at D to step it up, so I did, and then they yelled at me to play better, and not play so dirty....I think Jen could tell I was in pain, cause she took me out. I was sooo pissed, and my head hurt so much, i just broke into tears. I hate more than anything crying infront of people who are not my best friends and I know have other things to worry about then me, and that only made me madder. Well Margon came and talked to me, and she was the only one who seemed to give a shit. Not one of the 20 some girls on my team, or our 2 coaches, but the JV coach cared. She got me some med, and later sent me home. I felt so bad. I completely bitched out Kristen, and there was no reason at all for me to do it. It was just that everybody was yelling at me, and she was the first person i snapped at. (im sorry Kris).
I was also very sad today that I didn't get to see Robbie. He was going to come to my games...but then with the rain, there was no reason for him to come. I called him, to tell him it was raining, and I was going home....and he was already on his way. Since i have lost all hope in the male race...especially after 3 trys in a row at school, Robbie truly is my only hope. He has always been there for me...and i really wanted to see him. But he has prom tonight, I guess he is there right now. Kinda sad, I wish i was going to prom now. But oh well...it was my decision not to go. Well i hope he had fun.