Free write
I know I haven't updated in a VERY long time......and I will soon....the events of my life, I think have deff been worth updating, but now is not the time. I will do it soon though...Today i wanted to post something I wrote in English the other day. We had a 25 min free write.
I Changed a life? Me? In one weekend? Is it really possible? Did I really make a big enough impact on him to last a life time, to undo years of strong walls he has built? Is it possible? I was shocked, I was amazed. He was an amazing person, and from what I understand, he always has been. He told me he know how much of my hard work had created the weekend and how he knew that it wouldn't of happened without me. But was he really the only one out of the two of us changed. I think he impacted me just as much. I never really did anything our of the ordinary for him, besides embarrass him at breakfast, but somehow, something I did was enough. Because when he turned around awaiting the cross, and those few small words, the look on his face said one thing that summed it all up; "Touche`." It was as if we had been playing tag on each others lives. Who touched who more? I have no idea. But I know he wasn't the only one impacted for life. I was too. He made a point to stop me, and make sure I knew how he felt. That alone will change my life. Maybe not drastically, but every hairline of a change matters. So, is it possible that changing somebodies life can in return change yours? I'd have to say yes.
I had "changed" someones life before, at least, i though I did. I even wrote about it in my day book a year ago exactly. I thought it was some big great thing, because he was so "bad" at 1st, and now was so "good". But as I now know, I might have made a small impact, but not enough to change anything long term. He still changed back, lied, and somehow managed to break my heart in the process. I suppose that was because he stoll my heart 1st. That shouldn't have happened.
But this time it was different, this time was real. Instead of stealing my heart, he left footprints on it.(a better choice id have to admit.) And hopefully, i would like to think I did the same for him. I want it to be so he will look back when he feels lost or lonely, and know he is loved. I loved him. But it is not my love that matters, it is God's love that really changed his heart.