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Well, we are getting prety close to baby girl coming. I better let W take some pregnancy photos or we won't have any! :) I'm a little worried, because if she doesn't come by the 18th, then we will induce and have her that day. I have to put my faith in God that everything will be okay. Inductions scare me, epidurals scare me, and c-sections terrify me! I wonder if the hospital has wifi? I'll make sure W brings the laptop, and maybe we can update from the hospital.
I'm very happy to be pregnant, and I don't feel bad for my pregnancy anymore. (it's hard being joyous about pregnancy when your friends are struggling with infertility) I have lots of friends who are suffering from infertility, and it's really hard because I feel very uncomfortable around them-and it seems to be likewise. I met one woman, she's been struggling with her fertility since her late thirties, and she was just as sweet to me as can be, and she often asks about my pregnancy and baby related things. I finally told her last night "You're the first person dealing with infertility that doesn't hate me." She was so surprised, she doesn't hold other peoples joys and successes against them, despite her own pain and struggle with infertility. She decided to leave her pain in Gods hands, and he is making her a mom-a young lady is giving birth in 2 weeks and selected her to be the babies mother. The adoption will be finalized then, and her and I will have babies close in age. I am in sheer awe of her ability to be happy for others, she's going to be a wonderful mother, I'm glad we will get to share baby stories together. I really think God will provide, if we turn to Him. I feel everyone who was born to be a mother will be, maybe not always the way you expected, but God can make it happen.
I need to keep her strength and compassion in mind, because I'm feeling a tad resentful of those who are having the homebirth/waterbirth we hoped for. I still believe in birth, I believe it should be a natural wonderful experience. I need to be happy for others who can experience that. :) I experienced it with lil w, so I'm not completely out of the loop. I just wanted to experience it with Elizabeth too...but we'll do fine.
I'm very happy to be pregnant, and I don't feel bad for my pregnancy anymore. (it's hard being joyous about pregnancy when your friends are struggling with infertility) I have lots of friends who are suffering from infertility, and it's really hard because I feel very uncomfortable around them-and it seems to be likewise. I met one woman, she's been struggling with her fertility since her late thirties, and she was just as sweet to me as can be, and she often asks about my pregnancy and baby related things. I finally told her last night "You're the first person dealing with infertility that doesn't hate me." She was so surprised, she doesn't hold other peoples joys and successes against them, despite her own pain and struggle with infertility. She decided to leave her pain in Gods hands, and he is making her a mom-a young lady is giving birth in 2 weeks and selected her to be the babies mother. The adoption will be finalized then, and her and I will have babies close in age. I am in sheer awe of her ability to be happy for others, she's going to be a wonderful mother, I'm glad we will get to share baby stories together. I really think God will provide, if we turn to Him. I feel everyone who was born to be a mother will be, maybe not always the way you expected, but God can make it happen.
I need to keep her strength and compassion in mind, because I'm feeling a tad resentful of those who are having the homebirth/waterbirth we hoped for. I still believe in birth, I believe it should be a natural wonderful experience. I need to be happy for others who can experience that. :) I experienced it with lil w, so I'm not completely out of the loop. I just wanted to experience it with Elizabeth too...but we'll do fine.