Soooo, Yeah!
I wonder how long this will last but after sobbing on the phone last night to best friends I feel better today. I'm also feeling really good because I turned down my first party because I knew that if I went, then I would be faced with different bad things that I am trying to avoid right now. So yea, I’m soaring. I was even able to hang out with "Milo" (This is what I will now refer to him as, HAHA! I stole your soul Jeff!!) And not sob the whole way home, actually I didn't even feel depressed. Maybe I just needed one last good cry over it. Who knows?? But yeah, I just hope that one day I will be able to be a good enough person for the actual man of my dreams (but I doubt it because "Milo" wasn’t even half the man of my dreams and he didn’t even fall for me). Ok, Okay. I know, happy thoughts. I promise. Well, maybe I'll just mess around when a underage 10th grader... Who knows? I’m just kidding guys, but I think no matter what I quit, ill still be a make out hoar. I mean it’s just so "hard" (Oh yeah!) to resist!! Noelle, You know what I'm talking about!! Right? LOL. So yea, Luani should be here in a few minutes so I must go but let me leave you with this song for now. K?
Here's the lyrics:
By Avril Lavigne
"Losing Grip"
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going newhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then i don't care were not going nowhere
Or if you have a yahoo account:
http://search.launch.yahoo.com/search/lsearch/video?p=avril
then click "losing grip"
Here's the lyrics:
By Avril Lavigne
"Losing Grip"
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say I was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
You, you need to listen I'm starting to trip,
I'm losing my grip and I'm in this thing alone
Am I just some chick you place beside you to take somebody's place
when you turn around can you recognize my face you used to love me,
you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't ok I was left to cry there
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there
when I was scared I was so alone Why should I care
Cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care were not going newhere
Why should I care cuz you weren't there when I was scared I was so alone
Why should I care If you don't care then i don't care were not going nowhere
Or if you have a yahoo account:
http://search.launch.yahoo.com/search/lsearch/video?p=avril
then click "losing grip"