Joy and Pain (10/13)
Title: Joy and Pain (10/13)
Author: eiko_lotus & yun_miyake
Length: Chaptered
Pairing: Juntoshi (as always)
Summary: you never know what you got until you lost it and sometimes diamonds could slip away from your hand.
Rate: PG
Disclaimer: yes, we own Juntoshi. Oh wait, it was in our dream. In real life, they own each other.
Warning: English was not and never will be our first language, so sorry if you found misplaced grammar here and there. Happy reading... ^__^v
“I want to go home with Papa.”
It was the day for Masaki to be released from the hospital, Ohno was still busy packing their things to the big bag. Sho wasn’t there since the doctor must check another patient that time, but promised that he would be back as fast as he can to help Ohno.
“Are you sure? What about Daddy?” Ohno turned his attention to Masaki who finally inserted the game he got from Umika.
“Daddy is not nice to me lately, maybe he’s stress. I really miss you.”
Hearing that Ohno’s heart fell down, he missed Masaki as well, if only he didn’t stay at Sho’s house, he would already bring Masaki along with him from the first time. But the situation was not that easy, he stayed at Sho’s house, what the doctor will say if he brought his son there.
“Papa,” Masaki held his elbow, the kid looked at him, his face showed a deep begging expression.
Ohno was about to explain the situation to his son when the door opened and Sho entered. The doctor even look more handsome and sparkling under his uniform, something that just appeared inside Ohno’s head, is this another feeling? He asked himself, but all of sudden Jun’s figure blocked it. Jun is taller, Jun is more handsome, Jun is the most perfect man on earth. A perfect man who betrayed him.
“Wow we are ready to go home,” he stroked Masaki’s head and turned his head to Ohno.
“We?” Ohno questioned him. He knew that Sho didn’t tell Jun about the time Masaki could go home or maybe the doctor told the wrong date for Ohno’s sake. Of course it would risk his job, but seemed that Sho didn’t care much about it.
“Yes, you, me and Masaki mean we, right boy,” Sho patted Masaki’s shoulder, “Umika can’t wait to see you again,” he continued.
“W-what? Sho-kun, we can’t…”
Ohno could feel his face turned warm when he imagined that he will bring more trouble to Sho’s house. He managed to look for apartment after Masaki get well and live just with his son. Besides, his studio is large enough to be changed to a live place.
“I want to help you and I meant it Satoshi,” Sho looked through his eyes, the one who called him with first name was only Jun. Now that name seemed so strange in his ear when it was said by someone else than Jun.
“I can’t give you more trouble than I already did,” Ohno looked to another direction. He knew how red his face was. Masaki held his elbow a little bit tighter, the kid’s voice was too innocent when he said, “I want to meet Umika chan again and play with her.”
“Of course Masaki-kun, Umika likes you so much, she always talks about you after your first met,” Sho chuckled and gave Ohno meaningful smile. Ohno bit his lip, he knew that Sho would pursue him until he said yes. So with no more argument, he agreed to bring Masaki to Sho’s house. The doctor seemed never see them as somebody else, he treated them like his own family, and more than once Ohno could see how Sho watched him sharply.
The happiest person in the house was Umika, when she arrive home and found Masaki there. The girl couldn’t hide his delight. She took Masaki’s hand and showed him around, leaving their parents behind. Ohno smiled to see that, he never expected that Masaki can become friends with Umika that fast.
“They seem to like each other,” Sho commented while leading Ohno to take a seat at the sofa.
“I wonder about my studios condition, this is the longest time for me to absent from there,” Ohno sighed. His mind flew to the past, when Masaki was hospitalized, when he and Jun were still the happy couple. Jun would always keep Masaki while he checked his studio to make sure everything was under control, Jun would laugh at him when he suddenly panicked in the middle of the night, because accidentally dozed off on the sofa, he missed that. But all he had to face now was the reality that Jun doesn’t love him anymore…
“Satoshi, are you okay, do you need some sleep?”
The one who were there for him now was Sho, a doctor whose heart made of cotton, who saved him from the most difficult time of his life. He saw Sho’s smile so soft, makes him replied in instant.
“I think so, thanks for everything Sho-kun, I’ll take some sleep, please tell Masaki if he comes back.”
“Okay, have a good rest.” Sho took off his coat and watched Ohno until the later closed the door behind him.
Ohno spread his sight around, he already here for uncountable times, he began to feel this house like his home. For some reasons, he felt save here, maybe because of Sho. He threw his back to the bed, he wonder what kind of reaction Jun would do if he realized Masaki wasn’t there. But Masaki said that Jun wasn’t so nice lately. He wondered what happen. Is he too happy with Nino that he forgot his son? Or maybe Nino didn’t feel comfort if Masaki around because the boy reminded him of Ohno, but Masaki resembled Jun more than Ohno. With all the complicated thoughts, Ohno finally fell asleep.
***
What Ohno didn’t expect was, there was no call from Jun, asking Masaki where about. He couldn’t help feeling sad for it, because it seemed that Jun forgot about Masaki. He went to his studio that morning, after a long time, the receptionist welcomed him with the wide smile and the worry questions about Masaki’s condition, Ohno explained shortly and he stepped to the exercise hall. He put his bag on the chair and ready to change his clothes when he heard his door opened then closed and a voice behind him heard.
“I don’t know what kind of game that you play with that doctor, clearly you become his jewel now huh, just like what he said to me,” Jun stepped relaxingly to him, with one hand inside his pocket and other hand is holding a paper.
“I thought you forgot this place,” he answered coldly, pulling his shirt back down again.
“Satoshi, I prepared this, maybe this is the best for us.” Jun handed the paper to him. Ohno took it, read it quickly, the signed divorcing form. He knew it would have happened sooner or later, but it still make his heart ache. He facedown the floor, speak clearly to Jun.
“Finally we take this step, I hope you can be happy with him.”
The silent fell between them, Ohno refused to look at the man in the eye, so he waited for Jun to answer while keep staring to the cold floor.
“I will, since he carried my kid anyway, but I have a request,” Jun leaned closer, both of his hands are on his pocket now, “Bring back Masaki to me.”
Ohno lifted up his face. He stared to the wall across him, few inches away from Jun’s sharp face. He gulped, how dare Jun asked Masaki to be back with him. After heard what the kid said, Ohno concluded that Jun gave more attention to Nino than their own son, and now, with their own baby coming, Masaki will only be left alone. He couldn’t let that happen to his beloved son.
“Let Masaki choose for that, I smell a careless parent in this case,” Ohno turned back, gripped the paper tighter in his hand, “Get out Jun, we don’t have any bussiness anymore, we’ll proceed the divorcion as soon as possible, I’ll make it quick so you can marry your bitch.”
“Who’s the bitch? I saw you’re worse than that, bring your son along to that damn doctor’s house? What kind of attitude is that? I’ll take him tonight, I won’t let you or anyone else blocks my way to take my son back.” Jun’s voice rose in every word he said. He looked so angry, the selfishness that Ohno knew well for all these years arisen, ruled every inch of his face.
“Do what you want to do?” Ohno calmly said, he stepped further from the man, “I never remember that I made dreadful mistake until you betray me, or maybe I am too dull for a bright conductor like you.”
Ohno left Jun to his office, he heard steps closer and found Jun’s hand on his wrist, “I swear I’ll never regret our divorce,” he whispered, his eyes stabbed Ohno’s, his lips shook in strong belief. Ohno just rose his eyebrow.
“Can’t wait to see that happiness,” he threw Jun’s hand away, seeing the taller turned his back away and walked to the exit.
“He’s hotter than you! I wonder how strong Sakurai is on bed until you clung on to him like a slut!” Jun shouted so loud, enough to fill the empty room only with his voice.
Ohno tried hard to control himself from running to Jun and punch his face, he pretended that he didn’t hear anything, but when Jun’s car left away the building, his tears started to stream down. Never once he imagined that Jun would shout those words to him.
“Slut?” he asked himself, “How dare you are,” he bit his lip, but the tears won’t stop.
Sho never lay his hand to Ohno so far, they didn’t share any intimidate thing. For Ohno, Sho was nothing more than a friend. Even though what Sho had done to him was more than someone could possibly do to his friend. Now Jun shout it to him, declared that Nino is hotter than him, and accused him that he’s nothing more than a slut. He punched his own desk to release his anger and sadness.
He swore he will never hand Masaki to Jun. No matter what it takes, he would bring his son to other town when it’s needed. For the first time in his life, he wanted to make Jun suffer, wanted to prove Jun that he made the biggest mistake, wanted to make Jun beg for him to comeback, to kneel down in front of him.
He quickly finished his stuff in his office then he drove to Sho’s house as fast as he can.
***
“Surprise!!”
What welcomed him was out of his expectation. His cloudy mind took him over, but when he saw Masaki and Umika’s bright smile, it vanished away.
“Papa, Sakurai san will take us on vacation,” Masaki approached him, circled his arm around his waist, his thick brown hair tickled him.
“We already packed your things Ohno sensei, I and Masaki nii did it, so all we have to do is go now.” Umika glanced to her Papa when Sho appeared from his room. He also carry a travelling bag, a wide smile plastered on his chubby face.
“Thank you,” Ohno patted Masaki’s head and also Umika. He questioned Sho with his gaze and the doctor explained,
“We’ll go to my villa, around three hours from here, it’s good for us to take some fresh air, especially Masaki. But if you still have some business here I can take you back but return for the kids at night.” Sho’s eyes demanded him to say yes.
Ohno’s mind still complicated because of his anger seems moved slower this time, he couldn’t give any answer. Jun’s words that said that he will take Masaki back ringed in his head, if they stay, Masaki would be taken by force, Ohno will never let it happens.
“Let’s go!” he took his bag.
Sho smiled go wider as he heard Ohno’s answer. Four of them walked to the car, Masaki and Umika jumped to the back and Ohno smiled when he saw how Masaki helped Umika get on the car. He opened the door on the passenger’s seat, glanced at Sho who busily checked everything.
“Thank you,” he said.
“There’s nothing to be thanked for.” Sho answered.
He gave a little touch on Ohno’s finger but only for few seconds. Ohno planned to tell Sho about what happened today when they arrived at the villa. But for now, he paid attention to the road in front of him. Masaki and Umika started to chat about what they will do as they arrived. Some of the ideas come from Masaki who loves outdoor activities so much, Ohno smiled when he heard it, he could forget Jun for a while now.
***
Sho’s villa located at the high hills with the cozy cold air and many trees surround it. Masaki and Umika had already asleep when they arrived. After lay them down on the bed, Sho took Ohno outside, where they can enjoy the light in the city from here.
“Is there anything wrong Satoshi?” Sho pulled the rattan chair for him and he himself flop his back to the chair next to Ohno.
“Jun came to my studio and handed me a divorce form he signed,” Ohno answered without think too much, he looked at Sho’s face to see his reaction.
Sho didn’t give any reply, so Ohno continued, “He wants Masaki back.”
“But Masaki wants to be with you right?” Sho shivered a bit of the cold air. Ohno remembered the scene at the hospital, when Masaki refused to come back home with Jun and demanded to go with him, that kid also didn’t want to see Nino anymore.
“I will finish it soon, the divorce and make sure that Masaki stayed be with me,” Ohno tried to erase the word ‘slut’ from his head. He closed his eyes for a while, but all he can see is Jun.
“Sho kun, can I kiss you?” all of sudden those words came out from his lips. Ohno opened his eyes and turned his head to Sho who looked freeze and gave him a blank look.
Without waiting for Sho to answer, Ohno leaned closer, pressed his lips to Sho. He felt the cold skin welcomed him and his hands wrapped Sho’s wide back, but the doctor freezes still. When Ohno pulled his head from him, he saw Sho’s sad face.
“Satoshi, I know you’re thinking of him,” Ohno knew Sho talks about Jun, “I want you to kiss me without any thought of him, just me.” Sho stood up, he didn’t look angry or anything, just sad but an understanding crossed his face.
“I can accompany you all night, you can cry on my shoulder, you can punch me and imagine that I am him, just release your emotion on me, I’ll help you get through this with all my might,” Sho took his hand and pulled him into a hug.
Ohno felt that he was too stupid now. He must erase Jun from his memory. He held the doctor tighter to him. Only Sho, no more Jun, only Sho. He replied those words inside his mind, even though he couldn’t do that now, but sooner or later he’s sure that Sho would replace Jun, he believes or he hope so.
a.n.: I just wonder, how many of you that keep reading this fic? since I knew several had drop it. So Thank You all who had read it so far... ^___^
Author: eiko_lotus & yun_miyake
Length: Chaptered
Pairing: Juntoshi (as always)
Summary: you never know what you got until you lost it and sometimes diamonds could slip away from your hand.
Rate: PG
Disclaimer: yes, we own Juntoshi. Oh wait, it was in our dream. In real life, they own each other.
Warning: English was not and never will be our first language, so sorry if you found misplaced grammar here and there. Happy reading... ^__^v
“I want to go home with Papa.”
It was the day for Masaki to be released from the hospital, Ohno was still busy packing their things to the big bag. Sho wasn’t there since the doctor must check another patient that time, but promised that he would be back as fast as he can to help Ohno.
“Are you sure? What about Daddy?” Ohno turned his attention to Masaki who finally inserted the game he got from Umika.
“Daddy is not nice to me lately, maybe he’s stress. I really miss you.”
Hearing that Ohno’s heart fell down, he missed Masaki as well, if only he didn’t stay at Sho’s house, he would already bring Masaki along with him from the first time. But the situation was not that easy, he stayed at Sho’s house, what the doctor will say if he brought his son there.
“Papa,” Masaki held his elbow, the kid looked at him, his face showed a deep begging expression.
Ohno was about to explain the situation to his son when the door opened and Sho entered. The doctor even look more handsome and sparkling under his uniform, something that just appeared inside Ohno’s head, is this another feeling? He asked himself, but all of sudden Jun’s figure blocked it. Jun is taller, Jun is more handsome, Jun is the most perfect man on earth. A perfect man who betrayed him.
“Wow we are ready to go home,” he stroked Masaki’s head and turned his head to Ohno.
“We?” Ohno questioned him. He knew that Sho didn’t tell Jun about the time Masaki could go home or maybe the doctor told the wrong date for Ohno’s sake. Of course it would risk his job, but seemed that Sho didn’t care much about it.
“Yes, you, me and Masaki mean we, right boy,” Sho patted Masaki’s shoulder, “Umika can’t wait to see you again,” he continued.
“W-what? Sho-kun, we can’t…”
Ohno could feel his face turned warm when he imagined that he will bring more trouble to Sho’s house. He managed to look for apartment after Masaki get well and live just with his son. Besides, his studio is large enough to be changed to a live place.
“I want to help you and I meant it Satoshi,” Sho looked through his eyes, the one who called him with first name was only Jun. Now that name seemed so strange in his ear when it was said by someone else than Jun.
“I can’t give you more trouble than I already did,” Ohno looked to another direction. He knew how red his face was. Masaki held his elbow a little bit tighter, the kid’s voice was too innocent when he said, “I want to meet Umika chan again and play with her.”
“Of course Masaki-kun, Umika likes you so much, she always talks about you after your first met,” Sho chuckled and gave Ohno meaningful smile. Ohno bit his lip, he knew that Sho would pursue him until he said yes. So with no more argument, he agreed to bring Masaki to Sho’s house. The doctor seemed never see them as somebody else, he treated them like his own family, and more than once Ohno could see how Sho watched him sharply.
The happiest person in the house was Umika, when she arrive home and found Masaki there. The girl couldn’t hide his delight. She took Masaki’s hand and showed him around, leaving their parents behind. Ohno smiled to see that, he never expected that Masaki can become friends with Umika that fast.
“They seem to like each other,” Sho commented while leading Ohno to take a seat at the sofa.
“I wonder about my studios condition, this is the longest time for me to absent from there,” Ohno sighed. His mind flew to the past, when Masaki was hospitalized, when he and Jun were still the happy couple. Jun would always keep Masaki while he checked his studio to make sure everything was under control, Jun would laugh at him when he suddenly panicked in the middle of the night, because accidentally dozed off on the sofa, he missed that. But all he had to face now was the reality that Jun doesn’t love him anymore…
“Satoshi, are you okay, do you need some sleep?”
The one who were there for him now was Sho, a doctor whose heart made of cotton, who saved him from the most difficult time of his life. He saw Sho’s smile so soft, makes him replied in instant.
“I think so, thanks for everything Sho-kun, I’ll take some sleep, please tell Masaki if he comes back.”
“Okay, have a good rest.” Sho took off his coat and watched Ohno until the later closed the door behind him.
Ohno spread his sight around, he already here for uncountable times, he began to feel this house like his home. For some reasons, he felt save here, maybe because of Sho. He threw his back to the bed, he wonder what kind of reaction Jun would do if he realized Masaki wasn’t there. But Masaki said that Jun wasn’t so nice lately. He wondered what happen. Is he too happy with Nino that he forgot his son? Or maybe Nino didn’t feel comfort if Masaki around because the boy reminded him of Ohno, but Masaki resembled Jun more than Ohno. With all the complicated thoughts, Ohno finally fell asleep.
***
What Ohno didn’t expect was, there was no call from Jun, asking Masaki where about. He couldn’t help feeling sad for it, because it seemed that Jun forgot about Masaki. He went to his studio that morning, after a long time, the receptionist welcomed him with the wide smile and the worry questions about Masaki’s condition, Ohno explained shortly and he stepped to the exercise hall. He put his bag on the chair and ready to change his clothes when he heard his door opened then closed and a voice behind him heard.
“I don’t know what kind of game that you play with that doctor, clearly you become his jewel now huh, just like what he said to me,” Jun stepped relaxingly to him, with one hand inside his pocket and other hand is holding a paper.
“I thought you forgot this place,” he answered coldly, pulling his shirt back down again.
“Satoshi, I prepared this, maybe this is the best for us.” Jun handed the paper to him. Ohno took it, read it quickly, the signed divorcing form. He knew it would have happened sooner or later, but it still make his heart ache. He facedown the floor, speak clearly to Jun.
“Finally we take this step, I hope you can be happy with him.”
The silent fell between them, Ohno refused to look at the man in the eye, so he waited for Jun to answer while keep staring to the cold floor.
“I will, since he carried my kid anyway, but I have a request,” Jun leaned closer, both of his hands are on his pocket now, “Bring back Masaki to me.”
Ohno lifted up his face. He stared to the wall across him, few inches away from Jun’s sharp face. He gulped, how dare Jun asked Masaki to be back with him. After heard what the kid said, Ohno concluded that Jun gave more attention to Nino than their own son, and now, with their own baby coming, Masaki will only be left alone. He couldn’t let that happen to his beloved son.
“Let Masaki choose for that, I smell a careless parent in this case,” Ohno turned back, gripped the paper tighter in his hand, “Get out Jun, we don’t have any bussiness anymore, we’ll proceed the divorcion as soon as possible, I’ll make it quick so you can marry your bitch.”
“Who’s the bitch? I saw you’re worse than that, bring your son along to that damn doctor’s house? What kind of attitude is that? I’ll take him tonight, I won’t let you or anyone else blocks my way to take my son back.” Jun’s voice rose in every word he said. He looked so angry, the selfishness that Ohno knew well for all these years arisen, ruled every inch of his face.
“Do what you want to do?” Ohno calmly said, he stepped further from the man, “I never remember that I made dreadful mistake until you betray me, or maybe I am too dull for a bright conductor like you.”
Ohno left Jun to his office, he heard steps closer and found Jun’s hand on his wrist, “I swear I’ll never regret our divorce,” he whispered, his eyes stabbed Ohno’s, his lips shook in strong belief. Ohno just rose his eyebrow.
“Can’t wait to see that happiness,” he threw Jun’s hand away, seeing the taller turned his back away and walked to the exit.
“He’s hotter than you! I wonder how strong Sakurai is on bed until you clung on to him like a slut!” Jun shouted so loud, enough to fill the empty room only with his voice.
Ohno tried hard to control himself from running to Jun and punch his face, he pretended that he didn’t hear anything, but when Jun’s car left away the building, his tears started to stream down. Never once he imagined that Jun would shout those words to him.
“Slut?” he asked himself, “How dare you are,” he bit his lip, but the tears won’t stop.
Sho never lay his hand to Ohno so far, they didn’t share any intimidate thing. For Ohno, Sho was nothing more than a friend. Even though what Sho had done to him was more than someone could possibly do to his friend. Now Jun shout it to him, declared that Nino is hotter than him, and accused him that he’s nothing more than a slut. He punched his own desk to release his anger and sadness.
He swore he will never hand Masaki to Jun. No matter what it takes, he would bring his son to other town when it’s needed. For the first time in his life, he wanted to make Jun suffer, wanted to prove Jun that he made the biggest mistake, wanted to make Jun beg for him to comeback, to kneel down in front of him.
He quickly finished his stuff in his office then he drove to Sho’s house as fast as he can.
***
“Surprise!!”
What welcomed him was out of his expectation. His cloudy mind took him over, but when he saw Masaki and Umika’s bright smile, it vanished away.
“Papa, Sakurai san will take us on vacation,” Masaki approached him, circled his arm around his waist, his thick brown hair tickled him.
“We already packed your things Ohno sensei, I and Masaki nii did it, so all we have to do is go now.” Umika glanced to her Papa when Sho appeared from his room. He also carry a travelling bag, a wide smile plastered on his chubby face.
“Thank you,” Ohno patted Masaki’s head and also Umika. He questioned Sho with his gaze and the doctor explained,
“We’ll go to my villa, around three hours from here, it’s good for us to take some fresh air, especially Masaki. But if you still have some business here I can take you back but return for the kids at night.” Sho’s eyes demanded him to say yes.
Ohno’s mind still complicated because of his anger seems moved slower this time, he couldn’t give any answer. Jun’s words that said that he will take Masaki back ringed in his head, if they stay, Masaki would be taken by force, Ohno will never let it happens.
“Let’s go!” he took his bag.
Sho smiled go wider as he heard Ohno’s answer. Four of them walked to the car, Masaki and Umika jumped to the back and Ohno smiled when he saw how Masaki helped Umika get on the car. He opened the door on the passenger’s seat, glanced at Sho who busily checked everything.
“Thank you,” he said.
“There’s nothing to be thanked for.” Sho answered.
He gave a little touch on Ohno’s finger but only for few seconds. Ohno planned to tell Sho about what happened today when they arrived at the villa. But for now, he paid attention to the road in front of him. Masaki and Umika started to chat about what they will do as they arrived. Some of the ideas come from Masaki who loves outdoor activities so much, Ohno smiled when he heard it, he could forget Jun for a while now.
***
Sho’s villa located at the high hills with the cozy cold air and many trees surround it. Masaki and Umika had already asleep when they arrived. After lay them down on the bed, Sho took Ohno outside, where they can enjoy the light in the city from here.
“Is there anything wrong Satoshi?” Sho pulled the rattan chair for him and he himself flop his back to the chair next to Ohno.
“Jun came to my studio and handed me a divorce form he signed,” Ohno answered without think too much, he looked at Sho’s face to see his reaction.
Sho didn’t give any reply, so Ohno continued, “He wants Masaki back.”
“But Masaki wants to be with you right?” Sho shivered a bit of the cold air. Ohno remembered the scene at the hospital, when Masaki refused to come back home with Jun and demanded to go with him, that kid also didn’t want to see Nino anymore.
“I will finish it soon, the divorce and make sure that Masaki stayed be with me,” Ohno tried to erase the word ‘slut’ from his head. He closed his eyes for a while, but all he can see is Jun.
“Sho kun, can I kiss you?” all of sudden those words came out from his lips. Ohno opened his eyes and turned his head to Sho who looked freeze and gave him a blank look.
Without waiting for Sho to answer, Ohno leaned closer, pressed his lips to Sho. He felt the cold skin welcomed him and his hands wrapped Sho’s wide back, but the doctor freezes still. When Ohno pulled his head from him, he saw Sho’s sad face.
“Satoshi, I know you’re thinking of him,” Ohno knew Sho talks about Jun, “I want you to kiss me without any thought of him, just me.” Sho stood up, he didn’t look angry or anything, just sad but an understanding crossed his face.
“I can accompany you all night, you can cry on my shoulder, you can punch me and imagine that I am him, just release your emotion on me, I’ll help you get through this with all my might,” Sho took his hand and pulled him into a hug.
Ohno felt that he was too stupid now. He must erase Jun from his memory. He held the doctor tighter to him. Only Sho, no more Jun, only Sho. He replied those words inside his mind, even though he couldn’t do that now, but sooner or later he’s sure that Sho would replace Jun, he believes or he hope so.
a.n.: I just wonder, how many of you that keep reading this fic? since I knew several had drop it. So Thank You all who had read it so far... ^___^