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oh man. i am... i believe the phrase is "losing it". i am losing 'it'. whatever it is. i've lost it. i am so.....unhappy right now. i can't even believe it. i didn't even think this level of unhappiness was possible. before now, that is. now i definitely understand. oh holy fuck. even i am amazed at how bad this is. i know this doesn't make any sense. and tomorrow i am going to read this and be like 'what the fuck?'. but right now, this is exactly, truly, oh-so-agonizingly-accurately how i am feeling. why let it go unsaid? i am pretty fucking miserable at the moment, and i don't mind saying it and i really don't know just why and i most of all don't know what to do next. um.....yeah. if ever there was someone out there whose job it was to you know, fix these kind of things then....i'd be giving them a call right about now. i need HELP. help in the real sense of aid/ayuda/socorro ya know like real, useful, meaningful assistance, not like 'oh i hope things turn out okay for you man' kind of bullshit. things are obviously NOT FUCKING OKAY. so please spare me the insincere sentimental claptrap. yeah. really, from the bottom of my shattered little heart. okay? help.