[fic] Desire
Title: Desire
Author: Eiji Satoshi
Pairing: HeeShik
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: ZE:A is not mine
A/N: un-beta-ed
Heechul knows it. He can’t own him.
Heechul loves the boy so much. He is his precious dongsaeng, a young attractive boy with cute face and childish behavior. Though he sometimes gets annoyed by it, but he feels okay if it is him. It is him, whom he desires to be with, spend his times and share his everything.
Heechul still remember the first time they met. They are just strangers. They didn’t know each other.
“Park Hyungsik.” He said.
Heechul nodded. “Jung Heechul.”
There was no greeting such a “hello” or “nice to meet you” or else. They were just staring to each other. No smile, no handshake, no further introduction.
But Heechul knows that he already fell in love to the boy for the first sight.
As time goes by, they were getting closer and closer. But Heechul can’t remember how they start talking to each other, laughing together, holding hands, doing silly things like pretending to be gay in front of others, hugging, kissing and saying “I love you” several times. While Heechul’s love keeps growing day by day.
Sometimes he really means it when he whispered “I love you, Shikkie ah~” to his ear. The younger boy only smiled to him, which made Heechul’s heart stops beating for a second.
Or when the boy suddenly hugged him and said, ”Hyung~ I’m starving~ gimme food pleaseeeee~” Heechul laughed and said, “I will give you… but how about giving me a kiss as return?” He gave him cookies and received a kiss on lips. “Thanks, hyung~ I love you!!!” Heechul melted already.
Or when he was laying on his bed at night, the younger boy -who sleeps on the same room- came to him and whispered “Good Night” words to him. Sometimes he added “have a nice dream, hyung~” or “dream about me, okay?” or “don’t get wet dream, hyung!” or just “I love you”. Heechul will sleep with wide smiling face and have a great dream of the younger boy.
But Heechul knows he can’t own the boy.
He could only hold his love and desire, also hundreds dreams and imaginations of the younger boy, from lovely one until the wildest, keep it just for himself. Sometimes he was afraid of himself. He might lose his control and jump to the boy. Or worse, the younger boy will leave him forever because of that.
He could only smile bitterly when he saw the boy was walking with a girl, holding hands and laughing together. They look so happy, like a normal lovey dovey couple. The girl is cute and pretty, really the younger boy’s type. Heechul feels so jealous and angry, but he could do nothing. He just greeted them and said jokingly that he feels jealous seeing them. He cried inside.
But Heechul knows he will spend his life with the boy.
“I think we can live together, hyung.” He said one day.
Heechul stared at him with a puzzled look.
“Because i can’t imagine living without you, hyung~~~ who will feed me when I’m starving? Who will caress me when I’m sad? Who will hug me when i’m cold~? Who will give me a goodnight kiss?”
Heechul laughed. “Pabo. You can ask your future wife to do that.” He laughed again when he saw the younger boy’s pout.
“but i want you who do those things to me, hyung…”
Heechul could feel his heart beating so fast.
“Is it a marriage proposal?” Heechul asked jokingly. “Okay, let’s get married tomorrow~”
“yaaahhhhh… hyung, why you make it as a joke?” But then he laughed. “Oh by the way, hyung~ we are already married! We got married on that old variety show. Hahaha!”
Heechul remembered it, of course. He answered, “Yes. And I hate being a bride.”
The younger boy laughed, “Should we get married again? This time I will be the bride. Hahaha!”
“No thanks. I only married once in my life.” Heechul answered, makes the younger boys laughed.
And Heechul knows it. He will love the boy forever.
END