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there are a lot of things i want to share with you. i mean, a collosal amount of things. a huge fucking pile; mountains of it. i keep myself uneasy with this barrier around my heart, so that it always aches and swells and it can never get loose. i long for letting myself go, and you to witness it. i keep it chained up for fear it will run off and find a better home; a different master. i will lose everything that makes me great. and yet, i know it isn't so! now, now i know. with this i take a hammer to smash down all the walls i have constructed and lived in for all my life; i will start new. it has been long enough.