"y'know, I may not have a lot going for me, but I've got some damn good ____."
I basically just got told that I'm too young to get married, that sex stops as soon as you do get married, and that I'm going to end up in an affair.
Somehow, I'm having difficulty believing all that. Sure, I'm a baby in comparison to the rest of the adult world, but damnit, I'm a baby with ambition and determination! If I had to drop out of school right now and get a full-time job, I'm a certified professional, and I could do it.
Am I scared? Heck yes I am.. I'm terrified that maybe I am really too young or that Aaron and I aren't as compatible as we thought and we're making a huge mistake. I'm also scared that my months in Basic class were a total waste and I'm a useless EMT. I didn't mean to memorize and forget the information.. I don't know if I've just had so many different kinds of info crammed into my head that I didn't have room to retain it or what, but I've already been fired from one job. I know it was a scheduling problem, but I really hope that's all it was and that I'll be able to go to Intermediate this summer and catch up without being totally lost. But y'know, we've talked about it and prayed about it the whole way, and things keeping "happening" to work out for us... So maybe we'll be okay.
I'm on spring break. I spent the first few days at Aaron's monkeying around and not getting a whole lot done. We did do the wedding invitations for our friends here. I'm mailing the first batch today, and I'll probably send a few more out on Monday. As Jaclyn so kindly informed me last night, i'm "cutting it close" at having the invites out. (THANK YOU Captain Obvious!) I don't think she understands that the important people know, and we're not looking to have a big wedding anyway. So as long we get hitched, at this point, I don't think either of us care a whole lot.
Chuck and Mili aren't coming, and that really does make me sad. I really like to get to hear about everything Chuck has been up to, and Mili is a total sweetheart. She had an ectopic pregnancy a little while back. I think she's okay now, but I feel really bad for her. She and Chuck have been trying to get pregnant for a while now.
Well, my mom's supposed to be here later, and I still need to run some errands so I better go...
Somehow, I'm having difficulty believing all that. Sure, I'm a baby in comparison to the rest of the adult world, but damnit, I'm a baby with ambition and determination! If I had to drop out of school right now and get a full-time job, I'm a certified professional, and I could do it.
Am I scared? Heck yes I am.. I'm terrified that maybe I am really too young or that Aaron and I aren't as compatible as we thought and we're making a huge mistake. I'm also scared that my months in Basic class were a total waste and I'm a useless EMT. I didn't mean to memorize and forget the information.. I don't know if I've just had so many different kinds of info crammed into my head that I didn't have room to retain it or what, but I've already been fired from one job. I know it was a scheduling problem, but I really hope that's all it was and that I'll be able to go to Intermediate this summer and catch up without being totally lost. But y'know, we've talked about it and prayed about it the whole way, and things keeping "happening" to work out for us... So maybe we'll be okay.
I'm on spring break. I spent the first few days at Aaron's monkeying around and not getting a whole lot done. We did do the wedding invitations for our friends here. I'm mailing the first batch today, and I'll probably send a few more out on Monday. As Jaclyn so kindly informed me last night, i'm "cutting it close" at having the invites out. (THANK YOU Captain Obvious!) I don't think she understands that the important people know, and we're not looking to have a big wedding anyway. So as long we get hitched, at this point, I don't think either of us care a whole lot.
Chuck and Mili aren't coming, and that really does make me sad. I really like to get to hear about everything Chuck has been up to, and Mili is a total sweetheart. She had an ectopic pregnancy a little while back. I think she's okay now, but I feel really bad for her. She and Chuck have been trying to get pregnant for a while now.
Well, my mom's supposed to be here later, and I still need to run some errands so I better go...