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Today seems like a good day, to burn a bridge or two. One with old wood creaking that'll burn away right on cue..
They say not to burn your bridges, but why do I want to so badly? I have repeatedly had urges to do this in my life. It will be random, but I will all of a sudden want to change and renovate and live a different way and cut off all ties to my old life. I'm at this point now and I'm not really sure what I want to get rid of and what I want to become but it's constantly on my mind. I feel like I woke up a new person one day, but I'm stuck in my old life. The more the zoloft kicks in, the more this feeling deepens.
You think you are so troubled and disturbed but in actuality you can do whatever you want. You just act on impulse and although that stirs up trouble sometimes you have nothing to truly worry about. It all works out for you in the end. All of us don't work that way. Some of us have consequences that follow our actions and we don't feel like we should behave in ways that lead to horribly destructive and unwanted consequences. Some of us learn from our mistakes. And lastly some of us aren't born a certain way and have to exhibit some form of controlled behavior to achieve the same results, so don't judge me if I am one of those people. Great that you're not, but I don't really need it flaunted in front of my face all the time. You say you care, but it's obvious that you don't truly know what compassion is. I thought I could live the way you do and it would all be wonderful, but everything is not wonderful now and I can't follow the same path you do. It's going to ruin my life if I do. I'm glad it works for you, but you should understand that we are all different and we all handle things in different ways. I really just want you to go away.
Trying to be active and staying away from laying in bed all day.
Trying to keep myself occupied and staying away from thinking and pondering.
Trying to be thankful and staying away from being regretful.
Trying to live and staying away from not living.
I also look extremely forward to Carolina basketball season.
They say not to burn your bridges, but why do I want to so badly? I have repeatedly had urges to do this in my life. It will be random, but I will all of a sudden want to change and renovate and live a different way and cut off all ties to my old life. I'm at this point now and I'm not really sure what I want to get rid of and what I want to become but it's constantly on my mind. I feel like I woke up a new person one day, but I'm stuck in my old life. The more the zoloft kicks in, the more this feeling deepens.
You think you are so troubled and disturbed but in actuality you can do whatever you want. You just act on impulse and although that stirs up trouble sometimes you have nothing to truly worry about. It all works out for you in the end. All of us don't work that way. Some of us have consequences that follow our actions and we don't feel like we should behave in ways that lead to horribly destructive and unwanted consequences. Some of us learn from our mistakes. And lastly some of us aren't born a certain way and have to exhibit some form of controlled behavior to achieve the same results, so don't judge me if I am one of those people. Great that you're not, but I don't really need it flaunted in front of my face all the time. You say you care, but it's obvious that you don't truly know what compassion is. I thought I could live the way you do and it would all be wonderful, but everything is not wonderful now and I can't follow the same path you do. It's going to ruin my life if I do. I'm glad it works for you, but you should understand that we are all different and we all handle things in different ways. I really just want you to go away.
Trying to be active and staying away from laying in bed all day.
Trying to keep myself occupied and staying away from thinking and pondering.
Trying to be thankful and staying away from being regretful.
Trying to live and staying away from not living.
I also look extremely forward to Carolina basketball season.