I LOVE YOU TOO Casey. I thought about you guys during the whole afternoon. And I missed you a lot, but you were with me, you know. I also restrained myself from laughing because at some point I recalled when you passed by me jumping in that hilarious way at the FNX show and I was picturing it in my mind, I saw you pass by and make that funny face in my direction when the streets were empty. :D
And it's good that you mention the 'freedom' in 'PunkCabaret' because I never thought it would be so hard for me to do something of the sort just out of WANTING it, usually this is pretty easy for me. I first thought it would be easy to take this step you know, and then I started picking things for my costume and then I took more time to do so, and as time went by I realized I was scared to do it and being a coward.
When I had this weird dream/nightmare about statuing (I think it's in the entry called "I've Got You Under My Skin" if you want details) I realized it was time for me to jump in the pool and stop "considering" it in my mind.
And I didn't know it would change something in me the way it did, even though it's not that much of a big deal, there are tons of amazing street performers who are much better than I am and have amazing skills, but at my level it's huge.
And it's good that you mention the 'freedom' in 'PunkCabaret' because I never thought it would be so hard for me to do something of the sort just out of WANTING it, usually this is pretty easy for me. I first thought it would be easy to take this step you know, and then I started picking things for my costume and then I took more time to do so, and as time went by I realized I was scared to do it and being a coward.
When I had this weird dream/nightmare about statuing (I think it's in the entry called "I've Got You Under My Skin" if you want details) I realized it was time for me to jump in the pool and stop "considering" it in my mind.
And I didn't know it would change something in me the way it did, even though it's not that much of a big deal, there are tons of amazing street performers who are much better than I am and have amazing skills, but at my level it's huge.
So yeah I'm happy. :)
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