Mom's weekend
It's mom's weekend here at college and it's making me feel like shit.
Went to work out and they have all these activities for it. As I left there were girls with their moms all over the place, laughing and genuinely having a great time.
My mom and I never look like that.
It's not like she's a horrible mom or anything. Not like she's an alcoholic or kicks me out of the house repeatedly or anything. But we're not close. Apparently some girls even gossip with their moms and tell them what boys they like and things like that. I could NEVER imagine doing that with my mom.
Some moms and daughters go do fun things together like shopping or get pedicures and things like that. Not us. Well, by necessity we've gone to the store together but it's mostly a negative experience.
Don't get me wrong, I don't want a buddy mom that tries to be cool by wearing teen's clothes and offering me alcohol and never offering discipline of any kind- parents should still be PARENTS. But I wish we could be friends too. I wish I could tell her something about my life but most things I pretty much keep a secret.
I wish I had the horse show mom that comes to the shows and helps get the horses ready and offers to help put the shows together and become friends with the other kid's moms and things like that. Instead at the most she'd help me with show fees and avoid the show grounds as much as possible so I'd find friends to help me switch tack and band my horse's mane and hold him still while I polish his hooves.
I just wish I had the kind of support and friendship from my family that other people seem to have. I know that she and the rest of my family love and care for me, I just want to feel it.
Went to work out and they have all these activities for it. As I left there were girls with their moms all over the place, laughing and genuinely having a great time.
My mom and I never look like that.
It's not like she's a horrible mom or anything. Not like she's an alcoholic or kicks me out of the house repeatedly or anything. But we're not close. Apparently some girls even gossip with their moms and tell them what boys they like and things like that. I could NEVER imagine doing that with my mom.
Some moms and daughters go do fun things together like shopping or get pedicures and things like that. Not us. Well, by necessity we've gone to the store together but it's mostly a negative experience.
Don't get me wrong, I don't want a buddy mom that tries to be cool by wearing teen's clothes and offering me alcohol and never offering discipline of any kind- parents should still be PARENTS. But I wish we could be friends too. I wish I could tell her something about my life but most things I pretty much keep a secret.
I wish I had the horse show mom that comes to the shows and helps get the horses ready and offers to help put the shows together and become friends with the other kid's moms and things like that. Instead at the most she'd help me with show fees and avoid the show grounds as much as possible so I'd find friends to help me switch tack and band my horse's mane and hold him still while I polish his hooves.
I just wish I had the kind of support and friendship from my family that other people seem to have. I know that she and the rest of my family love and care for me, I just want to feel it.