fell on dark days
To put it nicely, things are falling apart. I am under so much stress that I catch myself clenching my jaw ALL the time and it hurts. And apparently I'm pretty good at grinding my teeth in my sleep too. And popping my jaw. On the bright side I can barely open my mouth enough to eat but sadly that's still not enough to stop me :(
I stopped taking Prozac some time ago. It's probably been a couple weeks. Initially I felt like crap and then felt really good for a while and thought maybe I was on to something. But now I am feeling like the biggest pile of shit again and have been for a couple days.
I think one thing I wanted was to see if I could regain the effects prozac had on me when I first started taking it. When I felt like I wasn't so depressed and especially when it made me not much feel like eating let alone bingeing. I want that back.
I wonder how long it takes to take Prozac out of one's system for the most part. I think I will start taking it again. I don't know why I'm not. I still take my birth control and now the antibiotics for my UTI but I just don't want to take the Prozac or Singulair or vitamins.
I need a counseling appointment but I hate going in so much that I just cannot bring myself to do it.
I think I am frustrating Calvin. He knows I am suffering from a major lack of motivation and blames it on himself. He tried to explain to me that I should ask for a break from the relationship if I feel like I need it but what he does not understand is I was plenty unmotivated and self hating before I met him. He is the only thing that keeps me slightly sane, the only good thing I've got going for me.
Every aspect of my future is looking pretty damn bleak.
I stopped taking Prozac some time ago. It's probably been a couple weeks. Initially I felt like crap and then felt really good for a while and thought maybe I was on to something. But now I am feeling like the biggest pile of shit again and have been for a couple days.
I think one thing I wanted was to see if I could regain the effects prozac had on me when I first started taking it. When I felt like I wasn't so depressed and especially when it made me not much feel like eating let alone bingeing. I want that back.
I wonder how long it takes to take Prozac out of one's system for the most part. I think I will start taking it again. I don't know why I'm not. I still take my birth control and now the antibiotics for my UTI but I just don't want to take the Prozac or Singulair or vitamins.
I need a counseling appointment but I hate going in so much that I just cannot bring myself to do it.
I think I am frustrating Calvin. He knows I am suffering from a major lack of motivation and blames it on himself. He tried to explain to me that I should ask for a break from the relationship if I feel like I need it but what he does not understand is I was plenty unmotivated and self hating before I met him. He is the only thing that keeps me slightly sane, the only good thing I've got going for me.
Every aspect of my future is looking pretty damn bleak.