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i had a dream last night that made me really happy when i woke up. i am still kinda happy, but slowly drifting back into that irritated mood.
i dreamed about massechusetts. i was with a woman who looked and sounded exactly like nana, only she she didnt act like my nana or anyone related to me, and behaved a lot younger than she is. we were on a hillside, with a small green valley in the middle. there were two guys, using weird rope contraptions kinda like bungee jumping, but not. there was also really strange elastic rubbery stuff. 'nana' talked to the guy who was beleing (anchoring) for the second guy, asked what they were doing. they talked to her, across the vallley, and i waled around the edge of the valley til i ended up where they were jumping from. they called it cliffjumping, and the one always did the jumping- the other was just there to help him. i think i already knew this, or subconsciously knew it, but the boys were named colin and phil- phil was the jumper. if i didnt know it already, when i realized that it was who it was i wasnt surprised, as if i had expected it all along. so i walked around to where colin was, and started playing with the eleastic rubbery stuff. it was like silly putt, only much more elastic, and much much stronger (able to hold a person's weight). then we ('nana' and i) were on a boat like ric's ski boat. we were in this bay, and headed towards a house. while we were headed there i didnt know exactly what was going on, just thought we were headed towards some house. (as if my mind hides stuff from me). when we arrived and tied up, colin came out onto the porch/dock, and at once i knew that he had told us at the cliffs to come by, and i had known all along that it was his house. but still, no moment of surprise, of realization. while i was still out on the dock, or the porch, a great big boat, ship, passed us by across the bay. it was a real ship, with sails and made of wood...the real mayflower type. there were also little row boats beside it. i just watched it pass by for a moment, a little awed, but didnt look at it for long. colin was talking, kinda informally giving a tour of the house, but just explaining whree we were, not showing every bit of the house. from inside i could see out the windows on the other side of the house, and there was a two story drop down to the porch on the other side. it was a grand view of terraces, but the one closest to the house had a large area padded and blanketed with many pillows, as if a giant's bed. colin was talking about it, and (yes, a point of relaization) i remembered staying there with the landmark group, and started telling about it to 'nana', remembering fun times. it also seemed that i was remembering attraction too, as was colin, and it came out in our behavior to each other, our glances, our eyes especially. not like we every touched. just an awareness. speech. and with my mind full of that awareness the dream faded.
i dreamed about massechusetts. i was with a woman who looked and sounded exactly like nana, only she she didnt act like my nana or anyone related to me, and behaved a lot younger than she is. we were on a hillside, with a small green valley in the middle. there were two guys, using weird rope contraptions kinda like bungee jumping, but not. there was also really strange elastic rubbery stuff. 'nana' talked to the guy who was beleing (anchoring) for the second guy, asked what they were doing. they talked to her, across the vallley, and i waled around the edge of the valley til i ended up where they were jumping from. they called it cliffjumping, and the one always did the jumping- the other was just there to help him. i think i already knew this, or subconsciously knew it, but the boys were named colin and phil- phil was the jumper. if i didnt know it already, when i realized that it was who it was i wasnt surprised, as if i had expected it all along. so i walked around to where colin was, and started playing with the eleastic rubbery stuff. it was like silly putt, only much more elastic, and much much stronger (able to hold a person's weight). then we ('nana' and i) were on a boat like ric's ski boat. we were in this bay, and headed towards a house. while we were headed there i didnt know exactly what was going on, just thought we were headed towards some house. (as if my mind hides stuff from me). when we arrived and tied up, colin came out onto the porch/dock, and at once i knew that he had told us at the cliffs to come by, and i had known all along that it was his house. but still, no moment of surprise, of realization. while i was still out on the dock, or the porch, a great big boat, ship, passed us by across the bay. it was a real ship, with sails and made of wood...the real mayflower type. there were also little row boats beside it. i just watched it pass by for a moment, a little awed, but didnt look at it for long. colin was talking, kinda informally giving a tour of the house, but just explaining whree we were, not showing every bit of the house. from inside i could see out the windows on the other side of the house, and there was a two story drop down to the porch on the other side. it was a grand view of terraces, but the one closest to the house had a large area padded and blanketed with many pillows, as if a giant's bed. colin was talking about it, and (yes, a point of relaization) i remembered staying there with the landmark group, and started telling about it to 'nana', remembering fun times. it also seemed that i was remembering attraction too, as was colin, and it came out in our behavior to each other, our glances, our eyes especially. not like we every touched. just an awareness. speech. and with my mind full of that awareness the dream faded.