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Kim brought up the other day something about mindless middle school crushes and how it should still be like when you like someone and your friends make fun of you for it but then you make fun of them for who they like and it changes every week and none of it really matters anyway.
And I thought, hey, I never did that. That sounds like fun! But, alas, I was not that type of middle schooler. I liked two people when I was at Pacific. And I still like them both today. Despite the fact that I've barely talked to one of them since. And that the other is completely unreasonable. Whatever. They both come way closer to perfect than anyone who's actually been around. Well...yeah. Okay. Yes. Than anyone. Which is stupid because I was 13. What the hell? How could I have known so much when I knew so little? When I was stupid enough to let him get away. But hey, I was still that stupid at 18, so who can blame it on age anyway?
Kim Smite.
I just...I don't know. I'm leaving and I thought I was done and it's lame because other people have actual things and this is just me thinking of things that aren't actual, you know. and what the fuck. I'll just stop talking now before I think any lower of myself for making this post at all.
And I thought, hey, I never did that. That sounds like fun! But, alas, I was not that type of middle schooler. I liked two people when I was at Pacific. And I still like them both today. Despite the fact that I've barely talked to one of them since. And that the other is completely unreasonable. Whatever. They both come way closer to perfect than anyone who's actually been around. Well...yeah. Okay. Yes. Than anyone. Which is stupid because I was 13. What the hell? How could I have known so much when I knew so little? When I was stupid enough to let him get away. But hey, I was still that stupid at 18, so who can blame it on age anyway?
Kim Smite.
I just...I don't know. I'm leaving and I thought I was done and it's lame because other people have actual things and this is just me thinking of things that aren't actual, you know. and what the fuck. I'll just stop talking now before I think any lower of myself for making this post at all.