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This journal is going to be serious......
I turn 18 in twelve days. To tell you the truth I wish I could go back in time and just be 2 years old and depend on my parents all over again. My birthday isn't going to be much at all seeing as how everyone splurged on graduation after I asked them not to. But I am not complaining. But yes I am going to be an 18 year old that signed papers to join the United States Army.... yet I can't buy my own cigarettes and I can't drink alcohol. I leave July 20th and you know I may come across like I am ready but I am scared beyond belief!
July 20th is a day I am dreading! My house is up for sale right now. Yes, I am not kidding there is a BIG Century 21 sign in my front yard. So not only am I leaving for basic... I am leaving Enterprise for good. You have no clue how scared I am. Everyday or moment that I think about it I break down. I am having to say goodbye to great friends and making my love wait for me. He tells me everything is going to be ok. To tell you the truth if it wasn't for him I don't think I would be able to make it right now because he goes out of his way to make things so easy for me and fight free. I love him to death. Don't get me wrong my mom and my dad have done tons but the move is just making everything so much harder. I'm not mad at them because they are moving on to bigger and better things but I don't want to grow up yet! I don't want to be Private First Class Erker yet. I want to be mommy and daddy's little girl still. No one really understands me (My friends atleast)! Everyone is staying here or going to Auburn or Alabama. To be honest.... we all know that it's not a big deal to go that far. I mean I am going to be by MYSELF with no contact other then letters via snailmail. No phone calls. I won't hear anyone's voice from July 20- the end of November. The look of fear in Steven's eyes and everyone telling me they are going to miss me doesn't make it any easier.
I keep thinking that when I finally do make it back here to Enterprise it will be for Flight School. I can't really complain about that but it's just sad I guess you could say. I am having a break down lol I thought I would share
I turn 18 in twelve days. To tell you the truth I wish I could go back in time and just be 2 years old and depend on my parents all over again. My birthday isn't going to be much at all seeing as how everyone splurged on graduation after I asked them not to. But I am not complaining. But yes I am going to be an 18 year old that signed papers to join the United States Army.... yet I can't buy my own cigarettes and I can't drink alcohol. I leave July 20th and you know I may come across like I am ready but I am scared beyond belief!
July 20th is a day I am dreading! My house is up for sale right now. Yes, I am not kidding there is a BIG Century 21 sign in my front yard. So not only am I leaving for basic... I am leaving Enterprise for good. You have no clue how scared I am. Everyday or moment that I think about it I break down. I am having to say goodbye to great friends and making my love wait for me. He tells me everything is going to be ok. To tell you the truth if it wasn't for him I don't think I would be able to make it right now because he goes out of his way to make things so easy for me and fight free. I love him to death. Don't get me wrong my mom and my dad have done tons but the move is just making everything so much harder. I'm not mad at them because they are moving on to bigger and better things but I don't want to grow up yet! I don't want to be Private First Class Erker yet. I want to be mommy and daddy's little girl still. No one really understands me (My friends atleast)! Everyone is staying here or going to Auburn or Alabama. To be honest.... we all know that it's not a big deal to go that far. I mean I am going to be by MYSELF with no contact other then letters via snailmail. No phone calls. I won't hear anyone's voice from July 20- the end of November. The look of fear in Steven's eyes and everyone telling me they are going to miss me doesn't make it any easier.
I keep thinking that when I finally do make it back here to Enterprise it will be for Flight School. I can't really complain about that but it's just sad I guess you could say. I am having a break down lol I thought I would share