Shot of Serotonin
Much like this blog, I keep a page of quotes, poems, memes, and comics which unintentionally reflect my origin, growth, failures, victories, and challenges during the recent phases of the last two years of my life. Much like poetry, it means different things to different people and may be representative of where they are in their own life. To some it reads like a tragedy. Others, a comedy. At times, a love letter. Just like life itself. It contains things I believe, things I wish I believed, things I mock, things I enjoy - both carnal and philosophical - an almost perfect summation of the last 24 or so months. Reminders of who I am, who I wish to be, who I don't want to be, things I know, things I didn't know, things I've mastered and things on which still need work. Some are recollections of a past which never was or a future which will never be, while others show me where I've been or where I may or may not ever be. Some are for lovers past, others for lovers future, and yet again current lovers where their individual kaleidoscope may touch upon, eclipse, or even overlay my own. I share it infrequently with those who may find themselves in a similar watercraft.
Sometimes it's about hopes and dreams and sometimes about the ferocity and heartache of growth. Reminders to others and reminders to myself. Things which I myself am proud to embody and things I maybe don't quite yet understand. Goals and aspirations as well as a chronicle of what I may have once believed but no longer find to be true. The one thing this site doesn't convey are the timelines; the glut of uploads during some periods or the lengthy dry-spells in between. The chasm of time betwixt the two extremes, triggered perhaps by seasons of loss, contentment, pain, joy, hurt, happiness, and sadness all. It was created for a singular purpose, but has mutated into so much more. Not just an introvert's playground, this introverts playground. Where I can live out my fantasies, play in the ether or thoughts, adorn myself with the armor of acceptance or purpose, battle demons, and shed tears.
A place of quiet. And reflection.
Of love.
But most importantly...
Hope