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As I was driving today, windows down, radio turned up and sunglasses
on, I realized that everything is going to be ok. This past two weeks I
have been freaking out about everything, and now I know everything is
going to be ok in the end. I no longer look out the window thinking
someone is waiting for me. I have finally realized that I do not need
Jordan in my life, and it is ok if we never talk again after this. I
will respect whatever decision he makes. Everything is going to be
finished and over with very soon. The loss of friends would have
happened anyway when I went to school in two months, so really I just
got it a little early. It was ok for me to be an emotional train wreck
the last two weeks, and not holding it in was the best thing to do.
Even though my family is on the verge of falling apart, there is
nothing I can do. And thats ok. I cannot fix everything and things fall
apart. In the end, what will happen will happen. Everything is starting
to be ok and I know it. For the first time in 10 months, I am smiling a
real smile.
I went to the doctor and my blood pressure was high and the doctor walked in and said, "Your blood pressure is a little high. Are you freakin' out about anything?" I wanted to say, "No, I'm just about to give birth...I'm fine."
I went to the doctor and my blood pressure was high and the doctor walked in and said, "Your blood pressure is a little high. Are you freakin' out about anything?" I wanted to say, "No, I'm just about to give birth...I'm fine."