I am gorgeous.
Ok, so after moments of randomness and all that, I feel relatively sane. Sometime this afternoon, I decided to check out my blog archives, around the same time of the year, in the past. I kept praying it wouldnt be a depressing entry, and no, they were not.
2007 - This is a private entry I had written. It coincidently mentions the ex boyfriend, but its something I was feeling at that time. Another entry around the same time mentions om shanti om being an awesome film, and me wondering what the hell am I doing in Au.
2006 - There are NO entries in nov. I havent really written a lot since I moved here, and there are many reasons for this, mainly because I am a lot busier managing my own house and get tired easily.
2005 - This is a friends only post, but I am talking about a random boy who met me when I was at work, and he hit on me. Flattering today, as I did not even remember this happened. :-) Reading the comments was nice as well... I miss all you lj people.
2004 - This is the best entry of them all! A model, who I think is gorgeous said she thought I was pretty. Woohoo.
I noticed my current mood, and it made me think. From happy and bored, I have moved towards depressed and scared very often lately. I know that a lot of it is hormones and events that have happened in my life over the years, but it is NO reason for me to not feel pretty anymore. So what if I am fat now, and dress more conventionally. I cannot let the eclectic get away, ever. I used to be a gorgeous head turner, and I guess that girl has got lost somewhere inside me.
So amongst my moments of sadness, I hope to remember this entry, and maybe re-read it in a few years and remember the promise I made to myself. I am gorgeous, and will remain so. I am a good person and I make people smile. I am a good loyal friend, and will always be one.
I am, Ruchi, still the same person you know.
2007 - This is a private entry I had written. It coincidently mentions the ex boyfriend, but its something I was feeling at that time. Another entry around the same time mentions om shanti om being an awesome film, and me wondering what the hell am I doing in Au.
2006 - There are NO entries in nov. I havent really written a lot since I moved here, and there are many reasons for this, mainly because I am a lot busier managing my own house and get tired easily.
2005 - This is a friends only post, but I am talking about a random boy who met me when I was at work, and he hit on me. Flattering today, as I did not even remember this happened. :-) Reading the comments was nice as well... I miss all you lj people.
2004 - This is the best entry of them all! A model, who I think is gorgeous said she thought I was pretty. Woohoo.
I noticed my current mood, and it made me think. From happy and bored, I have moved towards depressed and scared very often lately. I know that a lot of it is hormones and events that have happened in my life over the years, but it is NO reason for me to not feel pretty anymore. So what if I am fat now, and dress more conventionally. I cannot let the eclectic get away, ever. I used to be a gorgeous head turner, and I guess that girl has got lost somewhere inside me.
So amongst my moments of sadness, I hope to remember this entry, and maybe re-read it in a few years and remember the promise I made to myself. I am gorgeous, and will remain so. I am a good person and I make people smile. I am a good loyal friend, and will always be one.
I am, Ruchi, still the same person you know.