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last night was crazy.i saw christina for the first time in a while.it was good to say hi.i was nervous to go there.but it was ok its like i can now look at her as just a friend.it feels good for it to be like that.well we went out to the spot again.the new intake is doin good it was givin me problems like the first 20 miles it was on but its all good now.it made a hell of a difference in my car.im still the slowest out there but it really doesnt matter everybody thats there is mad cool. there real racers they do it for the hell of it.everybody gets respect.this one guy with this killer mustang was talkin about my car to other guys and was sayin nothing but good things.and i wasnt around.i dissappeared on everyone last night for a while i couldnt take stuff ne more. i needed to clear my head.man i feel like such a slut.i like one girl (stephanie) but she says she doesnt wanna mess up things as friends between us but i like her a lot and i keep seeing her go for these assholes and i cant help but to think what about me and then theres tori.tori.i dont know how to gauge things between me and her.i like her a lot.she just left my house she was visiting a friend out here and she just stopped by to say hey and give me a hug.it made my day.its so confusing.i really like stephanie tho we all got kinda tipsy and stuff but i had to stop myself from drinking because i get all ummm whats the word uhhh lets just say flirty when im drunk.stephanie was messed up. i didnt wanna screw ne thing up.so i played it cool.i tried to keep away from her as much as possible and i started to be mean to her just so that she would wanna keep away from me.i was pissed off all last night i have a lot im thinkin about so i went into the gym and just started workin out and steph came in.i wasnt xcatly in the mood to talk.but it was a good night.but idk if i can only be friends with steph then thats cool but we know how it feels to get hurt on the worse level possible and wouldnt want to happen to either of again.i almost feel like i need a girl that has been threw almost the same as me so that when we have qa relationship together we would both try our hardest to not let it happen bc it sucks it really does.